~ Depressed and scared, not making it financially ~

Hi Colleen .... That is one thing I have always been guilty of .... running around barefoot or sock-footed. I guess now I'm paying for it. I have found that one of the styles of Merrell to which I add one of those rubber forms for p.f. works really well for me. I'll have to look at the Birkies .... are they the ones like sandles? or is it another style. It sure takes getting used to to be wearing real shoes all day when I've virtually lived barefooted. Getting out of bed in the AM is the worst ... yeowee! What stretches do you do? I'll have to try the iced water bottle thing. Thanks for the information. Let me know about the Birkies.
abby

I was fired from my job due too many doctor excuses, before I was hired I explained to my boss of the health issues I was having. They claimed they understood and that they would work with me. So after 5 or more going to the doctors to find out why I wanted to pass out (I didn't want to pass out at work, because I didn't want my face to lay on a hot plate I had to use to put numbers on football / cheerleaders uniforms ext,.) Now after neck surgery I thought my passing out will pass, but it hasn't. Now I have to see a neuro doctor to see why when I turn my neck to the left I get dizzy and lightheaded and my head feels like I got a lot of fog inside to where I can't think at all, and I have to concentrate really hard to remember what I'm doing.
So, in order to by-pass this feeling I keep my head still and looking straight and turn my whole body to the left so I don't have that problem. Looking to the right is fine. I brought this issue up to the doctor who did my neck surgery but he doesn't want to see me anymore, and now I wish I had never went through neck surgery because the main issue I was having went away, but came back in 2 weeks with a lot more issues involved.

Has anyone else gone through neck surgery, if so was your issue fixed or has it gotten worse?

With all this, I have no job, and no money coming to help support my family and I'm feeling very low about myself. I am trying to get my books published but I don't even know if I can do that right. I have family and friends tell me not to waste my time on something that no one wants to read especially with my name on it.

So, with all this I don't know how I'm even coping with all the worry I have about my health and money issues.

I was fired from my job due too many doctor excuses, before I was hired I explained to my boss of the health issues I was having. They claimed they understood and that they would work with me. So after 5 or more going to the doctors to find out why I wanted to pass out (I didn't want to pass out at work, because I didn't want my face to lay on a hot plate I had to use to put numbers on football / cheerleaders uniforms ext,.) Now after neck surgery I thought my passing out will pass, but it hasn't. Now I have to see a neuro doctor to see why when I turn my neck to the left I get dizzy and lightheaded and my head feels like I got a lot of fog inside to where I can't think at all, and I have to concentrate really hard to remember what I'm doing.
So, in order to by-pass this feeling I keep my head still and looking straight and turn my whole body to the left so I don't have that problem. Looking to the right is fine. I brought this issue up to the doctor who did my neck surgery but he doesn't want to see me anymore, and now I wish I had never went through neck surgery because the main issue I was having went away, but came back in 2 weeks with a lot more issues involved.

Has anyone else gone through neck surgery, if so was your issue fixed or has it gotten worse?

With all this, I have no job, and no money coming to help support my family and I'm feeling very low about myself. I am trying to get my books published but I don't even know if I can do that right. I have family and friends tell me not to waste my time on something that no one wants to read especially with my name on it.

So, with all this I don't know how I'm even coping with all the worry I have about my health and money issues.

I feel like I've just been slapped in the face. I know, in my "thinking" brain I haven't, but in my "emotional" brain it feels like I have. You all know I moved down here to the far western part of Virginia about 3-4 years ago, and have never particularly liked it. Well, I live in a low-income apartment which isn't particularly safe. There is a smaller building, owned by the same firm, right down the hill from me, which is just for seniors. It's somewhat cheaper and the places are smaller. My name has been on a list for about 1-1/2 years and so far, nothing. I'm tired of waiting, especially since I don't like it down here to begin with. Well, I've been toying with the idea of broaching the subject of an in-law suite to one of my daughters and her husband. I wrote to them, and very carefully brought it up and sent a website with all different types you could build attached to the big house, with double locked doors, so each would have their privacy. I absolutely love the woods .... the smells, sounds, the trees, the wet ground and all the critters in the mountains. Their place is only about 1/4 mile from a side entrance to the Blue Ridge Parkway. Oh I could have a beautiful garden, which I love, with flowers and veggies ... heavenly. Well, they weren't nasty about it, but it didn't fly too well. My daughter gave me all sorts of reasons why .... "their house isn't structured for that, it would have to come out of the basement, and a variety of things." I understand, but at the same time I feel slapped in the face. I know it's totally their decision, but for some reason it just makes me sad .... I feel unwanted. I wouldn't be living with them as there would be 2 locked doors between us only to get together when we wanted to. So I guess I'm relegated at some point to go to the old ladies home ..... I know I'm certainly in that age bracket, but I don't feel like it ..... gossipy, snippy, always talking about someone. Even though it's only 4 hours from where I was in MD, it's whole different world here. There's still plenty of confederate flags flying. I like to know about the news locally and in the country and the world, am always seen with at least 2 books I'm reading under my arm, and just don't want to sit around and vegetate. I view moving there as the last step to the end. I just hate the thought of it. They have no kids and I thought with me not being in their way at all, unless invited, it would work. I knew another couple who did that and it went well.
The other option I thought of was one of those tiny houses, but around here, the company brings all the things to you and you have to build it or have someone else build it. And I don't know where I'd put it either ..... money is tight. I guess I'm just having a pity party, but I do not like it here and probably am about as adjusted as I'll ever be. Should have stayed in MD.
abby

I feel like I've just been slapped in the face. I know, in my "thinking" brain I haven't, but in my "emotional" brain it feels like I have. You all know I moved down here to the far western part of Virginia about 3-4 years ago, and have never particularly liked it. Well, I live in a low-income apartment which isn't particularly safe. There is a smaller building, owned by the same firm, right down the hill from me, which is just for seniors. It's somewhat cheaper and the places are smaller. My name has been on a list for about 1-1/2 years and so far, nothing. I'm tired of waiting, especially since I don't like it down here to begin with. Well, I've been toying with the idea of broaching the subject of an in-law suite to one of my daughters and her husband. I wrote to them, and very carefully brought it up and sent a website with all different types you could build attached to the big house, with double locked doors, so each would have their privacy. I absolutely love the woods .... the smells, sounds, the trees, the wet ground and all the critters in the mountains. Their place is only about 1/4 mile from a side entrance to the Blue Ridge Parkway. Oh I could have a beautiful garden, which I love, with flowers and veggies ... heavenly. Well, they weren't nasty about it, but it didn't fly too well. My daughter gave me all sorts of reasons why .... "their house isn't structured for that, it would have to come out of the basement, and a variety of things." I understand, but at the same time I feel slapped in the face. I know it's totally their decision, but for some reason it just makes me sad .... I feel unwanted. I wouldn't be living with them as there would be 2 locked doors between us only to get together when we wanted to. So I guess I'm relegated at some point to go to the old ladies home ..... I know I'm certainly in that age bracket, but I don't feel like it ..... gossipy, snippy, always talking about someone. Even though it's only 4 hours from where I was in MD, it's whole different world here. There's still plenty of confederate flags flying. I like to know about the news locally and in the country and the world, am always seen with at least 2 books I'm reading under my arm, and just don't want to sit around and vegetate. I view moving there as the last step to the end. I just hate the thought of it. They have no kids and I thought with me not being in their way at all, unless invited, it would work. I knew another couple who did that and it went well.
The other option I thought of was one of those tiny houses, but around here, the company brings all the things to you and you have to build it or have someone else build it. And I don't know where I'd put it either ..... money is tight. I guess I'm just having a pity party, but I do not like it here and probably am about as adjusted as I'll ever be. Should have stayed in MD.
abby

Have you talked to a lawyer who deals with ADA issues? You were let go for the same condition that you had informed the company when you were hired. That's a violation of the disability protection act. Don't let people discourage you. It's very hard to go through that situation without people who should support you. There are also others who have written and there are groups online. Just don't let self publishers make you feel down. There is an answer for every question. Stop relating your situation to those who have put you down. It's a self defeating position. Concentrate on searching online for whatever you need to get to help your situation.

I feel like I've just been slapped in the face. I know, in my "thinking" brain I haven't, but in my "emotional" brain it feels like I have. You all know I moved down here to the far western part of Virginia about 3-4 years ago, and have never particularly liked it. Well, I live in a low-income apartment which isn't particularly safe. There is a smaller building, owned by the same firm, right down the hill from me, which is just for seniors. It's somewhat cheaper and the places are smaller. My name has been on a list for about 1-1/2 years and so far, nothing. I'm tired of waiting, especially since I don't like it down here to begin with. Well, I've been toying with the idea of broaching the subject of an in-law suite to one of my daughters and her husband. I wrote to them, and very carefully brought it up and sent a website with all different types you could build attached to the big house, with double locked doors, so each would have their privacy. I absolutely love the woods .... the smells, sounds, the trees, the wet ground and all the critters in the mountains. Their place is only about 1/4 mile from a side entrance to the Blue Ridge Parkway. Oh I could have a beautiful garden, which I love, with flowers and veggies ... heavenly. Well, they weren't nasty about it, but it didn't fly too well. My daughter gave me all sorts of reasons why .... "their house isn't structured for that, it would have to come out of the basement, and a variety of things." I understand, but at the same time I feel slapped in the face. I know it's totally their decision, but for some reason it just makes me sad .... I feel unwanted. I wouldn't be living with them as there would be 2 locked doors between us only to get together when we wanted to. So I guess I'm relegated at some point to go to the old ladies home ..... I know I'm certainly in that age bracket, but I don't feel like it ..... gossipy, snippy, always talking about someone. Even though it's only 4 hours from where I was in MD, it's whole different world here. There's still plenty of confederate flags flying. I like to know about the news locally and in the country and the world, am always seen with at least 2 books I'm reading under my arm, and just don't want to sit around and vegetate. I view moving there as the last step to the end. I just hate the thought of it. They have no kids and I thought with me not being in their way at all, unless invited, it would work. I knew another couple who did that and it went well.
The other option I thought of was one of those tiny houses, but around here, the company brings all the things to you and you have to build it or have someone else build it. And I don't know where I'd put it either ..... money is tight. I guess I'm just having a pity party, but I do not like it here and probably am about as adjusted as I'll ever be. Should have stayed in MD.
abby