@ngorman25 & @nettecook Yes, it's wonderful to have this site to share our concerns. It surely is "the good, the bad & the ugly" going through Cdiff and recovery. 🙂 I would NEVER feel comfortable talking to people about BM's. 🙂 And no one truly understands unless you've lived through it. 2018 and four bouts of Cdiff was a year I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. And their is such a fear of relapse. I'm in hopes that all those who have had FMT will be on their way to recovering. I wish I would have taken Deficid early on rather than waiting until my 4th bout. And I hope they find a generic so the price will lower for those who are unable to afford the high co-pay. I was happy to read the post the other day about finding coupons that helped cover the cost. Have a good evening.