Hey @godsgiver Al, I am so sad for the very difficult situation you are handling. My husband is struggling with Mild Cognitive Impairment and one of my biggest struggles is dealing with the feelings of isolation - and making time for me. So I kinda understand how you feel there. But the point you raise about being in that role w/o LOVE, is profound. Like @IndianaScott, I definitely struggle with anger - more times than I wish - but the fundamental underlying love keeps me on track along with the knowledge that my husband would do it for me in a heartbeat if our situations were reversed. I'm glad you are here on Connect. There are so many caring, thoughtful people here that you will definitely have built-in buddies! Do you have any "in person" support people for you? Or groups - like church? I find that kind of connection just invaluable and I'm hoping you have some of that in your life. Take care and stay here on Connect!