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~ Difficulties Finding a Job ~

Posted by Barb @amberpep, Jul 22, 2018

I didn't know whether to tack this on the end of my original one or what to do .... so if it's in the wrong place, please fix it for me.
I'm about at the end of my rope ..... I hate it here, looking for a part-time job but although they they don't discriminate because of age, ..... right! But when they ask when you graduated from high school, it doesn't take much to figure that out. I'm 73 which some of you know. My apt. is a mess and I don't care, I see each of my girls once a week, and the rest of the time I'm here - hiding out. I have my pup, but at 7 months she's still pooping on the floor ... I don't know what to do anymore about that.
Got up this AM in that dark, black, hole, feeling like I was covered with a heavy wet cold blanket. I've been so desperate at times, I've even thought of calling my X to go somewhere. Most of you know he only lives 20 miles from here, and since he's been here almost 9 years, he's the "king" of grandfathers ..... me? I try, but he sees them several times a week and they totally love him. That's fine ... it's just another example of how I don't fit in.
Supposed to rain today ... I hope it does .... I could sit on the deck and let it rain on me .... proabably feel good.
I just don't know what to do anymore. I have 1 friend here, but she is the type that would say, "just put on your big girl panties and get moving." Easy to say if you have not been there. I wish I could go to the private hospital up where I came from and be taken care of for awhile, and get away from all of this. So much drug dealing, a man threatening to commit suicide, which the police were able to "talk down." ..... I try to be nice to everyone, but most seem to think I have an ulterior motive. So, I stay here. I keep wondering, how long Lord, how long? Maybe soon. I'm so done with this.
abby

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annedodrill44 | @annedodrill44 | Aug 10, 2018
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@annedodrill44

Hi amber pep! I’m a senior lady too, so I am curious enough to do a little research on possible areas of employment for us “cougars”.:). Have you contacted local schools? They hire seniors for crossing guards. Also, stores such as Costco have many seniors promoting food and other products at their kiosks. If you have access to publishers, proofreaders are always needed. Local libraries hire seniors to man the information desks and book checkout. Find a list of focus group organizations in your area. Many conduct focus groups online. If you have experience to qualify for any of the many subjects they research, you are paid for your participation.
In my community, house sitters are very much in demand. Usually you stay in the house, water plants, take in mail and keep the house looking occupied while owners are away. If you enjoy pets, those sitters are paid even more.
I empathasize with the limitations of anxiety — I too have issues with this difficult challenge. I sure hope this helps you a bit and that we all return to good health together!

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Charlie75, thank you. I actually came on this site because I was experiencing my occasional “spells” of anxiety and nausea and wanted to get my mind off myself. It worked! This is a great forum isn’t it? I hope you’re having a good day!

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Lisa Lucier, Moderator | @lisalucier | Aug 26, 2018

Hi, @amberpep - just wanted you to know that you are being thought of here on Connect.

@lauraleaisme - you mentioned that you've also had some experience with being in a dark place in your life. What treatments or other types of support helped you at those times?

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lauraleaisme | @lauraleaisme | Aug 26, 2018
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Hi, @amberpep - just wanted you to know that you are being thought of here on Connect.

@lauraleaisme - you mentioned that you've also had some experience with being in a dark place in your life. What treatments or other types of support helped you at those times?

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Thanks.

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ssbionicknee | @ssbionicknee | Aug 26, 2018

Hi @amberpep! I know that deep dark place you speak of all to well. It drains you of your energy and it feels as if you are feel that way forever. I was just wondering if you were being treated for depression? That is what helps me. I remember feeling exactly the way you described and my psychologist would tell me that because of my depression, my thinking was distorted. I want you to know that you do matter to your girls and you do fit in. You sound very overwhelmed and in my depression, I couldn't handle doing everything. I had to take it hour by hour. It also helps me to go out in the sun. Just getting out of the house for 15 minutes for a walk will help. I started doing some things that got me out of the house. I know that that is probably the last thing you want to do.I had to force myself. I started with walks, then I signed up to deliver for Meals on Wheel. That has been one of my favorite things to do. It is something that can be done as often as you want and I enjoy talking to the people that I deliver meals to. I know the "put on your big girl panties" speech all too well. They don't understand that dark place. I hope you are being treated for depression. Just take it hour by hour. It will get better. Just try to find one thing to do each day to get you out of your apartment. Please let us know how you are doing. I see a lot of people on this page that care.

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Barb | @amberpep | Oct 2, 2018

I don't know whether my pup recognizes when I'm down or not. She's 9 months old and still very much a puppy. I like the idea of being a house sitter, but then what would I do with my puppy and 2 cats? But that does sound like fun and a nice change of scenery.
abby

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