My first question is "Are you still driving?" The next one is "Will someone take you to your appointment?" Having a good support system/team can be one of the best things we can have. Yes, you have every right to be scared, strokes are not something I would want my worst enemy to have, well……maybe. I had two strokes the first one in November of 2014, the second in December of 2014. When I was discharged from the hospital in January of 2015 the doctors didn't know if I needed Hospice or Palliative Care. I spent two months in rehab came home to live by myself and I'm still living by myself.
Have you noticed your blood pressure higher in the early morning? I understand that is normal. When you take your BP do you sit for about 5 minutes, take it, wait a minute or two, take it again, then do it a third time. Look at the 3 readings, throw out the high and low, keeping the one in the middle. This gives a more accurate reading. My highest BP was when I was having a migraine, so I wouldn't suggest taking your BP when you are having a migraine.
Keep as accurate records as you can. If someone is with you have them add to your records. If you feel comfortable having someone with you when you see the doctor you may want them to be with you. If you do not want someone with you, you may want to ask your doctor for a copy of your record. I'm always given a copy of my record when I leave.
I have never had some of the symptoms you have shared and I hope that your doctor can wave that magic wand and make everything better. If you feel your questions are not answered see if you can have a second opinion. Good luck.