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A new update:
Starting about 3-4 weeks ago, I've been skipping on the med altogether.
It's not that I successfully got off Seroquel, but simply 12.5mg felt no different than nothing at all.
Now off Seroquel (and any meds in general), I've got back to suffering anxiety and insomnia like prior to when I was put on medication.
I don't know if I'll have to second guess this decision but the reason I'm so reluctant to do so is that now I'm more aware of the problems in my life and of the urgency of a fix.
I mean that in the last years I've been accepting my situation through a good dose of denial, because I was too young and being given bad advice by my family.
Perhaps I'm at a stage where I'm demonizing meds and I shouldn't, but I can't help but think that meds have made me acceptant of a situation that should have been dealt with promptly rather than disregarded.
As for withdrawal symptoms, I don't have anything significant to report. My dose, 25mg, was pretty low to begin with. I don't even feel a noticeable change in libido.
Like I mentioned, now I'm having troubles falling asleep, and the amount of sleep I get at night is reduced to 4-5 hours, but this is just a problem I was struggling with before being on meds (also what made me look for meds back then).
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Hi back. A new update:
Since last time, I haven't really ever resorted to the medication despite still suffering insomnia.
In the last two weeks or so though, to my big surprise, I've shown some positive signs of improvement. I've been able to quite consistently fall asleep at about 3 am and to wake up at 9 am. I know it's not a perfect schedule but it may be due to me wanting to hang with friends till late rather than to restlessness.
I usually feel well rested and I haven't even being suffering nightmares for a while.
Something I've noticed is that, off Seroquel, before trying to fall asleep the first time or two, I would suddenly turn vigil and anxious, as if scared to fall asleep for some reason. I remember this happening quite often even when on Seroquel and for a while after quitting it. I would often get an involuntary and sudden movement of my leg even.
In the last days, though, I've had these "scares" reduce in intensity, and quickly allowing me to calm down and fall asleep right after.
Another very pleasurable thing was feeling drowsy, although this seems not be consistent. (I haven't felt drowsiness in the last 5-6 years except when induced by Seroquel).
I've been recently assigned a psychologist but I doubt this is a reason for my improvement as I've only had 4 appointments with them, and understandably, it's mostly been me introducing myself and my situation. In fact if I were really feeling better, I'd be less anxious, worried and depressed during the day than in the last months or years, but I'm not noticing any difference in this regard.
So really I don't know how my sleep could have improved. Perhaps my body is just getting off Seroquel but I'll leave the guessing up to who's more competent. (Like I have already said, I started suffering insomnia way before taking meds and I've always suspected that off meds I'd come back to a state of restlessness).
I can't help but hope that this is not just a lucky streak of good nights.
Also, since this is a result of me taking drastic decisions and cutting bonds, or redefining them in fairer ways, I'm also feeling a bit more entitled to make my own decisions, and as a consequence perhaps even be more positive about myself.
With this I'm not inviting everybody to question medical authority or family. In fact I'm still on fairly good terms with my psychiatrist (but not with my family). Mine is just personal experience and is pretty meaningless without enough people reporting being in a similar situation.