@kimestes, You are not alone with the waiting and feeling miserable. I remember that the clock seemed to slow down as I watched the minutes and days pass ever so slowly. I tried to remain positive by focusing on one day at a time, and relying on my faith and friends for strength.

Here are some possible ways for you to fill up your alone time, and to support others at the same time.
- Just Want to Talk - You will find discussions where you can enjoy a brief escape from medical talk. What are some of your interests: Recipes? Journaling? Sharing a laugh? Pets? The list is endless, so I invite you to scroll thru these discussions and read and join in anywhere. If you want to direct a question or a comment, you should add their @name just like I used @kimestes at the beginning of this reply. You are not alone.
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/group/other/
You are always welcome and we are here everyday all day 24/7.
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/page/about-connect/newsfeed-post/open-for-the-holidays-and-welcoming-2021/
Covid is 'getting to all of us' and if your depression and anxiety are becoming an issue, please talk with your transplant team.