I think many of us have considered the suicide option. When you feel desperate day after day, and there is no cure available, and many people including medical experts do not take you seriously or do not try to help you, it is terrifying and life doesn't seem worth living. It feels like you are half alive and half dead just watching others enjoy themselves. Heart-breaking. There is a huge mental component to this illness, and that's just one reason why it needs MUCH more attention. I hope shadow95 is okay. It is a daily struggle and battle, and I hate every second of it. I wish I could meet with others in person. I think it would help immensely.