@standinginfaith, venting allowed. You have supported so many. We are here now to support you and share your load. You have more than one person can carry at the moment.

I'm so grateful that @jacqueline2026 brought up this topic just at the time you needed it. I can understand your question. With how sick you are feeling and all the doctors appointments you have, how can you make it counseling appointments as recommended by your psychiatrist? I get that.

Let's just start with baby steps first. You're here right now. We're listening.
I also recognize that an online forum may not be enough. If you need to talk to someone right now, there are helplines available 24/7. Don't hesitate to call.
988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline: https://988lifeline.org/
Call 988 or 800-273-TALK (8255)

See more options in the Crisis Resources list here: https://connect.mayoclinic.org/blog/about-connect/tab/crisis-resources/