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@twobluelady

I've come to realize a big part of my problem is staying home and not going out. When I do get out, run errands, etc, I feel better. However, hard to go out when you have to watch your money and self-esteem issues so bad. Feel like everyone is looking at the "fat" lady. In my group of friends, I am by far the biggest. In reality i know everyone is not looking at me, but emotionally it's hard. Plus there ARE some people who definitely discriminate against you. It has happened to me before. Even in my looking for work, I'm paranoid about it.

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@twobluelady I understand completely. I tend to do that at times, sometimes I have to make myself go out. I am large myself. But even when I was thin or at a healthy weight, I still felt self conscious and that I wasn't good enough and that people were staring at me and thinking negative thoughts, but now I realize that it is me who is having the negative thoughts. I still have some trouble with that at times. I've been working on that and better about it now, still have to remind myself at times, and always doing my affirmations.

twobluelady ..... I so totally understand what you're saying. My personality is essentially introverted, and while I can go out with friends for a time, by the time I get home, I'm exhausted. When I'm really down, I isolate ..... I won't deny that. I'd rather be left alone than bother with anyone ... I don't answer the phone, the door, or anything. Not healthy, I know, but I just can't push myself to change it at those times. abby

Exactly amberpep. I totally isolate myself, not answering phone, etc too. I've always wanted my alone time, but isolation is not good. I've missed out on so much because its too much of an effort to call, go out, etc. I just don't know how to get over this.

I cringe at the idea of just making a phone call. A stupid phone call like to the cable company. I am an isolator too.
I know it's the worst thing I can do. But yet I do it. But just getting on this connect group is a baby step.