Dealing with grief and MAC illness

I thought I would share that my husband has terminal advanced prostate cancer. He’s up and about and enjoying cooking, but he’s in decline. We’ve been married for 25 years, both widowed because of cancer. I started a Widows and Widowers Grief Support Group at a church in Menlo Park in 1990 and it is still going there and in many other churches. I wrote four books on grief which are published and on Amazon. So you would think that I would know something about grief. But I had a bad day yesterday. I’ve had this MAC infection since 2001 and my husband saw me through that and all the problems since. Now it is hard to see him so sick. We are sustained through our faith, which would be inappropriate for me to share here, but I would be glad to email separately if my experience would be of help for anyone else. robynmar