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I'm Disappearing

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@judimahoney your post really resonated with me today. My husband has been so self-focused, rude, unapologetic, demanding, and unappreciative lately that I am running low on patience and running at low-level constant annoyance. He has such arrogance and confidence when he speaks to me, as if I am the one who doesn’t know what is going on instead of him! “Sir, you can’t even manage to write a check anymore, so pardon me if I follow the financial advice of our advisor instead of you.” He can’t even make a plan to get to the bathroom in time to prevent an accident, but he tries to tell me what I should be planning and doing! He tells me he would like “dinner at 5:30” now. “Sir, you”ll get dinner when I am done making it and not before.” He sleeps until 5 or 6 pm everyday anyway! He has “memories” of things we did together, but he re-writes them in ways that aren’t really true. I don’t correct him, but it is hard to sit and listen to him especially when his misremembering is hurtful or leaves me out. I know it’s not his “fault” and that it’s the disease but tolerating this constantly is very difficult for me. I’m to the point where I really just don’t want to be around him if I can help it and try to just keep busy in another room (hard because he shadows), or do chores outside (he avoids any “work” like the plague) or just pray that he won’t talk. Lately I feel like I’m in an emotionally abusive relationship. It’s the only abusive relationship where it is not only socially acceptable to stay in it, but there is an expectation that you do so. I pray every day that this is a phase that will pass.🙏 And soon! I know others have written that I will miss him when he is gone and I am alone, but right now all I want is peace.

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@mm180
It's hard not to feel resentful when they avoid work like the plague (especially when it seems they are perfectly capable of helping).
I'm so sorry about the constant demands and attitude you are dealing with (thankfully my husband is not manifesting like that).
We can only hope these challenging phases pass, but then what?
All the best to you. 🌺

@mm180 The brain degenerates in mysterious ways. Some people become sweet and docile, others self centered and others verbally and physically abusive. Sometimes as the degeneration progresses, the personality changes as well. Your description of staying in a socially emotionally abusive situation is eye opening. Would it be time to see a professional and do something for you?