Feeling Blessed Last Chemo

I would like to thank everyone who has provided encouragement, hope and sent prayers for me these last few months. This is such a wonderful group of women/men and the support could not be better.

Today was my last infusion of Chemotherapy I hope I never have to do this again. This was one of my reasons for my decision to have a Bilateral Mastectomy. I found out about my cancer in late December 2025 so it has been a wild ride and many stressful months. Here's hoping that the latter half of 2026 will be much better.

I am very blessed that they found my Triple Negative Cancer very early. This is what my mom passed away from in 2024. My tumor was 1.2 inches at time of surgery. I had wide surgical margins that were clear and the 3 axillary lymph nodes they took out were clear as well. My tumor was a grade 3 aggressive type so I decided to do 4 rounds of Chemo.

After I was first diagnosed I went down the rabbit hole and read everything I could read on the internet, questioned Chat GPT till it probably got sick of me and worried constantly. I worked in a medical office for 15 years so probably knew a little more than some as to what to search for. At some point I finally decided that my diagnosis is what it is and it would no good to worry myself/stress myself out. These days I am trying more to take things as they come one day at a time. I do worry a little about a recurrence, but I can't change what is and I have a great doctor who will do the worrying for me if I let him. I'm getting better at that.

I did have some nasty side effects from the chemo some mouth ulcers and everything tasting weird/bad and the skin toxicity. Overall I feel very blessed that it was not much worse. I know from reading other's posts that I got by pretty easily. My heart goes out to everyone that is still doing chemo.

I tend to push things aside and just do the next thing I am supposed to do. This is what I think helped me get through all of this . Sitting tonight rocking my great grandson who is 14 months old I started crying thinking about all that has been these last 8 months. God willing I will be here to see him grow up.

I am one of those people who do not like attention focused on me in a group, class , meeting etc. I chose to not ring the bell today after my infusion. I probably should have I definitely feel like I earned it. My anxiety just would not let me.