@esther589 You're absolutely right about that! We can't change our reality,but we can change how we respond to it. And sometimes you have to feel what you feel for as long as you need to feel it, , and when you get done with it, you can move on to something different, until you find something that makes sense. Some times we get stuff thrown at us that we did not order, and it's not fair (because I could list any number of folks who deserve a dance or two with Mr. Parkinson,) but I safisfy myself by believing that something worse lies ahead for him. And even with Mr. P lurking about,I know i wouldn't trade my troubles for anyone else's because there really are worse things. I have 5 cousins who have lost a child. Just thinking about that almost makes me want to bake a cake for Mr. P, So, sending you hugs from Berlin. The city's mascot is a bear so you'll be getting bear hugs to get you through whatever you have to get through. J