@tunared I have been married 45 years and until a few years ago had the perfect life, husband, marriage and everything else. My husband spoiled me and took care of me by loving me and giving the support I needed. Ours was the perfect marriage. As the years go by I am seeing the changes, when it’s good it’s like before and when it isn’t I feel I am on my own, I am exhausted from doing everything but at the same time grateful he does the dishes not always with soap which becomes an issue. Things get misplaced all the time I am tired of being 10 steps ahead. I have no me time he wants to go everywhere with me even if he doesn’t get out the car which is more lately. My friends are all out enjoying their lives while I sit at home with him. I listen to their trips and envy them. I am having a really bad day and find that even though I would doing anything for my husband who is 9 years older I think of maybe in the future that I will get to travel again also which means I will be doing it on my own not what we had planned. Although recently I read an article that said most caregivers die first, that really helped my moral.
Of course tomorrow hopefully will be a better day? Thanks for listening