Please don't give up. I felt the same way before I was diagnosed - 24/7 pain, spent all day and night in my bed, couldn't even walk around my apartment. I was terribly apprehensive of the future (I was 62, now 64). Had to stop working earlier than planned so was concerned about finances as well. I became very aggressive about finding doctors and searching out treatments. I have now found a dose of Lyrica, a dose of low-dose naltrexone, an acupuncture treatment schedule, and a compounded pain cream that all allow me to live somewhat normally. I also have Tonmya for days when the pain hits too badly for me to function. Mild stretching helps more than you would think - you just have to get over the hump of the first couple of days of doing it. I'm sending you strength!