I have no words that can take your pain away, Shelly. My cancer is not curable but slow spreading. I am much older so I have nothing to complain about. I have lived my life. I find solace in thanking God that it's me and not my kids or grandkids. My sister recently died from leukemia. She was told it was curable but then it wasn't. Her daughter died from cancer who was young. Are we all on this time clock? How much do we fight? All personal decisions we have to make for ourselves. I lean into my beliefs that God is in charge 🙏 I pray your path becomes less stressful. Do what you need to do for yourself, not what you think you have to do. Anger and hopeless feelings are absolutely okay some days. It's your journey. Make it a journey you're okay with. Own the cancer. Don't let it own you.