I sympathise with all of you as we are all in the same boat on choppy waters. My husband also has end stage renal disease through no fault of his own ;auto immune disease)

It is very hard to take when your partner has increasing brain fog. You feel like saying: “What IS it that you don’t understand?” But you don’t because you know it’s the toxins accumulating in his/her brain and not their fault. Sometimes I see the wonderful man I married. At other times I am tearing my hair out. I feel like all I’m doing is walking behind him to pick up and clean up. I am practically happy when I drive him to dialysis three times a week (used to be peritoneal at home -more work - but the time comes when this is not sufficient anymore- ) I call this my time off. I find that he gets upset over trivialities. It doesn’t take much to set him off. Sometimes he will tell me what to do and it doesn’t always make sense. He is slower than molasses going uphill in winter - again, not his fault, and I get it. But you feel ALONE. And at times you feel discouraged and depressed. You see to everything and you get physically and emotionally exhausted. I try to find solace in reminding myself why I married him and remembering all the good times we had together. It makes my day when he says thank you for all you do. Please try to find comfort in knowing that you are not alone and in remembering how wonderful your partner used to be - and that he/she would be there for you if the roles were reversed. Take care and God bless