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~ Move to be near my children ~
Hi everyone .... well, I'm back again, and I guess it's just the same thing, over and over again. I'm still living in the duplex I moved to when I left MD, still waiting for an opening at the low-income apartments so I can move there. I'm selling my condo in MD .... that will remove the temptation to go back, and I know I must stay down here in VA because both of my daughters and their families are here. They love having me here ..... that's the one and ONLY reason I am staying here. People have said, "you need to do what makes you happy" ..... easy to say, but at what expense? It would really hurt my girls and they could not be sweeter to me. I don't want to hurt them.
I saw my Psychiatrist last week in MD and he added Lamictal to my pile of meds. I used to take that about a year ago, and we stopped it because we weren't sure it was doing anything. So now we've added 2 more meds. - pill popper is what I feel like. When I take Lamictal I also have to take Propanalol because I get what they call "essential tremors" and that stops them.
So, I'm still here, have not moved yet, and spend most days alone. I usually see each of my girls once a week. If it weren't for them, I'd be out of here in a heart beat. Everything I knew and loved for 30 years is back there in MD. But life goes on and I'm not getting any younger, so I guess this was a wise move in that regard. I'm hoping to save enough to get a rescue Cavalier, as I had to put my Molly down almost a year ago - that still hurts. I can still see that little face.
Just an update .... I'm still here, still at the same place, very slowly adjusting. I think I've found a church but right now it is 1-1/2 hrs. away. When I do move it will only be 20 min. So I guess things are looking up, although day to day it doesn't feel like it.
abby
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I understand that your daughters are there but you do not seem happy. I know you love your children. However you are on so many meds to help you and it is not making " you" happy at all. If you were happy where you where then don't sell your place yet. Just wait and see how you feel on three months or so. I am raising my two grandsons and have had them all their lives except three years. They are 14 and 11. My son their father is AdHd and his sons are also. My daughter is bipolar and schsophenia( I know it is spelled wrong). I really try to manage this and my own health problems. Please hang in there. Do what is best for you. I promise you will be glad you did.Best wishes to you.
Hi there bestgrandma (I love that) ..... No, I don't like it here, but realistically, as I age, I will need more and more help, whether it be here or in an assisted living place. I had a knee replacement 5 years ago, and then a "revision" 2 years ago, and the first time a close girlfriend drove down from PA to help .... what a blessing that was. When I had the revision I was totally alone .... that was an awful time for me ..... being alone, and dealing with a major surgery and learning to walk again, not being able to drive, well .... let's just say I lived on "cream of wheat!" So, unless I want to only see my kids maybe 2x a year if I were in MD and they down here, I needed to move where they are. Times are so different .... when my X-husband's mother and my parents needed help, we drove up there (3-4 hours) just about every weekend .... I spent a full week up there when I had to admit my Dad to an Alzheimer's Unit. Kids nowadays don't do that. They want us to come to them! Fair? Maybe not, but it is what it is.
abby