~ Move to be near my children ~
Hi everyone …. well, I’m back again, and I guess it’s just the same thing, over and over again. I’m still living in the duplex I moved to when I left MD, still waiting for an opening at the low-income apartments so I can move there. I’m selling my condo in MD …. that will remove the temptation to go back, and I know I must stay down here in VA because both of my daughters and their families are here. They love having me here ….. that’s the one and ONLY reason I am staying here. People have said, “you need to do what makes you happy” ….. easy to say, but at what expense? It would really hurt my girls and they could not be sweeter to me. I don’t want to hurt them.
I saw my Psychiatrist last week in MD and he added Lamictal to my pile of meds. I used to take that about a year ago, and we stopped it because we weren’t sure it was doing anything. So now we’ve added 2 more meds. – pill popper is what I feel like. When I take Lamictal I also have to take Propanalol because I get what they call “essential tremors” and that stops them.
So, I’m still here, have not moved yet, and spend most days alone. I usually see each of my girls once a week. If it weren’t for them, I’d be out of here in a heart beat. Everything I knew and loved for 30 years is back there in MD. But life goes on and I’m not getting any younger, so I guess this was a wise move in that regard. I’m hoping to save enough to get a rescue Cavalier, as I had to put my Molly down almost a year ago – that still hurts. I can still see that little face.
Just an update …. I’m still here, still at the same place, very slowly adjusting. I think I’ve found a church but right now it is 1-1/2 hrs. away. When I do move it will only be 20 min. So I guess things are looking up, although day to day it doesn’t feel like it.