I lost my husband less than a month ago to Lewy Body and I too am struggling with things that come with grief and sorrow. No one will know exactly "your" grief but with a good support system I believe things will get easier with time, but will never go away. I have to remember to keep putting one foot in front of the other. I've got a great grief sponsor through hospice and I don't know what I would do without her. No one can tell another how to grieve, but she's there for me to vent, cry, get my anger out and to tell her my struggles and most importantly, she listens. Do you have a support system, like family or friends? I just got the book It's Ok That You're Not Ok and looking forward to reading it because for the past few weeks i haven't been ok.
I'm going to close with passing along some advice that I've been given... Stay Strong! And I pray that your struggles will become less with time....just like I pray they will be for me as well.
Love, Strength and Peace