@babbsjoy

I completely empathize with you: " I try to get up in the morning and be cheerful and positive because every day is different. The hard days really wear on me. I feel so bad for him and I do whatever I can to help him get through it but I become the brunt of his mood. I know he’s frustrated and in pain so I try to take it with a grain of salt. I have to remember that I am the closest to him and so therefore he is going to lash out at me. I pray hard that God will help him to get better and in the meantime I will love him with my whole heart."

With my husband George, there's no "get[ting] better" in a physical sense.
(He was in hospice care and is now in home-health care.) So, I pray that he "get[s] better" in a spiritual sense so that he has inner peace and calm about the inevitable. (He's still lucid and has been stuck in the "anger" stage of the process, and I am the brunt of his frustration and inability to embrace the decline in his mental and physical health. (He ha Alzheimer's, Lewy Body, vascular dementia and Parkinson's.)

And I pray for foregiveness--for the times that I lose patience and get angry at my husband for his lack of empathy for my own serious health issues. Because I have no moral support from him, I have come to value all your (this "community's") support.

Thanks @babbsjoy for your post, and for inspiring us. May God be with you and your husband through the rest of your days.