@deniae You are working in the right direction to get yourself help. Is your husband on Hospice? Is there an inpatient hospice nearby where he could transfer to while you heal yourself? Keep talking to those sources who can help you. If one cannot provide what you need, ask for a referral to another until you find help. Be the squeaky wheel and don't give up. Ask to speak with your therapist more frequently for your own mental support. Keep trying. Hugs.