Living in chronic pain
I've been visiting this forum every day for several weeks now, and there seems to be a new trend throughout a lot of the comments. What I've noticed are the comments about our doctors and specialists not seeming to offer us any/enough sympathy or support in dealing with the chronic, never ending pain that a lot of us are experiencing. Sure, we can tell them what we go through on a daily basis EVERY day of every week, but then they see their next patient and move on.
It just seems that no matter what we tell our doctors, spouses, adult children, friends, or even grandkids about what we have to deal with, and how it affects our daily lives, they can never really truly understand what chronic pain does to someone over a period of several years. It just wears you down physically, emotionally, and mentally, to the point that you're just existing, either for them, or for some other reason.
Some nights, when I'm climbing into my sleeping chair with my wife of 43 years sleeping in her bed on the other side of the room, I don't want to go to sleep because it means starting another day all over again when I wake up. Every day is the same, I wake up alone because my wife is at the office supporting us. She's home when I wake up on Saturday morning, but then she's gone again on Sunday morning at her church for half the day. So I'm at home alone the vast majority of the time. I know she'd do anything to help me whenever it was needed, and she sympathizes with my problems, both mentally and physically, but on some days you just want to stop existing, and for the pain to stop, but getting someone else to understand that seems to be impossible. It's something that can't be conceived of without them actually experiencing it for themselves.
Every day for the past 10+ years I've dealt with the chronic pain of osteoarthritis in my lower back, hips, and knees, as well as idiopathic poly neuropathy in my feet, and I just want it to stop. Another fucking day of just existing and staying at home all day by myself? Why am I even doing this? We never go any where, there's no money for any kind of a vacation. Nothing ever changes, except for the levels of my pain. Every day is exactly the same, and the weeks, months, and years just fly past me. The sheer monotony of my current situation is maddening, and I'm positive that I'm not the only person on this forum who feels exactly the same way.
How can we get someone other than ourselves to comprehend the ways we're feeling having to deal with this? Is it even possible?
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Namaste Loriesco,
I love your postive energy, and you are so right about exercise, discovering you passion, finding your support network and a good therapist. These all help towards focusing on what you can do, makes your body and mind feel healthier and happier, also supports you to manage your condition better!
Pacing and taking things in our stride. Good luck to you to!
Namaste, Cher51,
I hear you, and you understand her now, she doesn't recognise you but you can still be present for her, turn up, just sitting in the same space with her. We can't turn back time, but we can make the most of the present, try and reconnect in a different way, she may not remember her son but you can be her new supportive friend if she will let you.
Sending you peace and blessings
I ended up having a gout flare up 3 times before my doctor prescribed Allopurinol a few years ago, haven't had another flare up since. Quite possibly the most painful thing I've ever had to deal with.
I started building model cars again a couple of months ago after being out of the hobby for 45 years, and I'm loving it. I had forgotten how much I enjoyed it, but I'm having some fun again for the first time in several years.
I wish we could move to a warmer climate, the Winters here in the PNW suck, and really do a number on my pain. 6 months of clouds, rain, and fog. But we live within an hour's drive of our kids and our grandkids, and I can't see us ever moving away from that.
I'm very sorry for you what have to endure, dealing with chronic pain and still having to work must be exhausting at times. I would love to have a cat to help keep me company during the day while my wife is at the office, but our landlord says no pets, period. I've grown up with cats around me for most of my life, and we've had a couple since relocating to the PNW over 30 years ago for long periods of time, and we grow very attached to them. Losing them is as bad as losing a loved one IMO. In august of 2020, my older sister died of a massive infection(not covid) at the age of 64. She never got to retire, or be a grandma, our grow old with her husband, which really sucked. Less than a week later, my cat Molly died after having her for a little over 3 years, and I was destroyed, and I almost lost it. I can't believe that was 5 years ago already.
Just wondering, what's your cat's name?
I agree that was the most painful thing ever. As far as the fog that also does me in. I woke up this week in the middle of the night and had to take a pain pill which is really unusual. When I got out of bed in the morning, it was as thick as pea soup. The fog and the weather changed. If the weather stayed constant, it would be OK. But as the barometric pressure goes in and out my pain flares, I wish there was more attention paid to arthritis in the commonalities that those of us face. So many people and so little attention it’s crazy.
You don’t want to take too many antibiotics believe me or you will end up in the same boat I am in. I got Cdiff from too many antibiotics for UTI’S, was never told by any doctor when taking antibiotics you should take a probiotic. It seems that the Cdiff ate my stomach up, I’m in severe pain every day from the time I wake until I go to bed. I have had every possible test ran and no one can figure out what is causing the pain. There are days it’s just unbearable, I’m doubled over in pain. If it weren’t for the opiates I take for the pain, I don’t think I would be here today as the pain is so severe.
Thanks. Yes, I got to be careful with antibiotics. I am going to see an infectious disease doctor to talk about my situation. I may be suffering a kind of rejection with the implants, and somehow the antibiotic makes it disappear.
I am wondering if I could go on a course and then after resolving the pain, take a smaller amount for maintenance.
Else, it’s the pain & cane 4 me.
Hi! I joined the “couch-bound club” back in June of this year when I fell backwards and landed on my bottom in our yard. That day was followed by 3 weeks of excruciating pain when getting in and out of bed and reaching to put on socks and shoes or bending. Finally the X-ray and MRI of my back showed a fractured L3 vertebrae. Suddenly I could no longer drive, wash dishes, bend, carry clothes from to and from my laundry area or grocery shop in person. A MAJOR life change for me. The back doc saw me in late June and said “it just has to heal”. That would be 4 to 6 MONTHS!!!
Suddenly no driving, housework, doing dishes, going AMYWHERE!
So I have been spending my days primarily sitting or laying on my couch. I began ordering my groceries online to be delivered to my home and I tip the delivery person for bringing them into my house. I set up TV tables by the kitchen counters where the grocery bags get placed so I don’t have to pick heavy bags off the floor. Then I have no problem putting the groceries away.
I have been alone during the days because my husband still works. He does all the days dishes for me at night after dinner. I have a back brace to wear when prepping his lunch before he leaves for work in the am, and for prepping easy dinners in the evenings. My back does get extremely painful if I am on my feet more than 30 minutes. I am hoping the healing will be complete by October 31. Otherwise it may not be until Christmas. Our children are adults and out of the house. We do not have any pets. I miss going to the gym the most. I can’t exercise until my back is completely healed.
I have never watched this much TV in my life. 3 women from our church each brought one dinner for my husband and I but the rest of these 2.5 months I have prepared all our meals. My prayer for myself is that I can live just one day at a time and find the patience to persevere until my back has healed, then find more patience to help me recover my mobility and return to my church and again be “out in the world”. Thanks to all who have so honestly shared their challenges. I, too, had three other major joint surgeries which are being challenged daily. I will pray for all of us. I guess getting old is not as fun as it is portrayed on TV ads!!🫤
I actually believe science found already a cure for pain, but that would be the end of the pharmaceutical business.
I truly believe you are right. I have had 10 different procedures done to my back and none of them gave me relief, including the spinal stimulator. I have had a fusion on L5-S1 ten years ago and it made me worse gradually. I go to a pain specialist at Rush Hospital in Chicago. He keeps me on Norco to take the pain away and lets me do the normal things in life. I live alone and without help in a big house. My kids want me to downsize which I am planning to do in the near future. My pain specialist sent me to a neurosurgeon and he's wondering why the pain specialist had not done a pain pump. I soon found out that he doesn't like to use that method of relief. He's the only pain doctor in that hospital that doesn't do them. I went to my psychiatrist to get my 3 month prescription of antidepressants because I have become depressed with this whole situation. He doesn't understand why the pain doctor won't do the pain pump. He said he has had patients in wheel chairs walk into his office free of using any help to get them around in life and are walking just fine after getting the pain pump. He wants me to reconsider the pain doctor's decision and get a second opinion on having a pump put in. I was wondering if there is anyone who has had success with the pain pump. Please give me an opinion.