Same!!!! I'm struggling with being very angry with the surgeon for not giving us any real idea of just how horrendous the surgery and recovery are. My husband had Ivor Lewis about 10 weeks ago. You name it, he had the complication. I think knowing how grueling and life altering this surgery would be would have at least opened up the discussion of if it was worth the risk. My husband is currently in the hospital again with pneumonia. He also has an incessant dry cough since his stents (for 3 leaks) were removed 2+ weeks ago, which we're getting discouraged by this because no one know what is causing the cough and if it will go away. Every step forward includes 3 backwards. I wonder if he'll survive this surgery at the end of the day. I'm struggling with being positive and being realistic. Life is very hard right now.