I'm not recovering: Could meds be causing suicidal thoughts?
I feel depleted. In my past, I was motivated in trying anything to get better from a deep depression and intense anxiety. Years have gone by... it seems that I feel pretty low at the beginning of the day, and feel even lower by the end of the day. Suicidal thoughts have been present for the past week. I feel useless, replaceable, and very emotional. I have been retrying lamictal and am on the 4th week (50 mg). I see that it can increase suicidal thoughts in some people. How do I know if it's the medication causing them or that my depression has just gotten worse over time?
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I agree. It is science, but it is so much more as well. I refuse to believe this is all there is. I hope they do come up with a cure for mental illness and dementia. It's possible.
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What a great bit of information, and good for you! I'm doing the same thing. I won't take anymore psych meds. I think they caused more harm to my body than good. For me, getting outside, exercise, painting, music, God, laughter, and love are essential to healing. I also went through repeated trauma and life has felt like a war, but dumping medication into my body wasn't the answer. I'm so glad you're doing better. Your term, "cognitive blunting" is so spot on. I could relate to that immediately. I hated that feeling. Glad you're doing well. 🩷
You can do this, Autumn!! I'm encouraged to read this. I just wish you all the best in life! 🩷
Dear DfB
A Question, like you, I had & still have severe allergic effects from taking Anti-Depressants. Risperidone, Quietiapine, Effexor. None did what they were supposed to do and I was Hospitalized due to adverse drug reaction issues. I am Autistic ("hi-performing"). After a 3 yr Physician monitored titration off of Effexor, I am still getting legacy side effects (swollen face & rashes). You say you rebounded & recovered quickly. Clearly AD's can have a poisoness effect on the Body & central nervous system with very drug sensitive people. Now 2 yrs post finishing titration. But still getting legacy allergic effects. Do you still have any legacy adverse effects and how long did your Dr's say they will last? I have read an average of 4 yrs , after stopping taking AD Pills, can go on before you are clear of the drug effects.
When I stopped taking my antidepressant combo, it was my 4th time taking it. Even though I told my psychiatrist that it was ineffective when I retried it the 2nd time. I think the psychiatrists had me trying and retrying them because they didn't know what else to put me on. I have no residual effects. I went off because my psychiatrist dropped me and the meds were completely not working. There was no change from taking them to not taking them.
Autumn 2025
Thanks for your reply. It seems that lasting, Severe legacy effects are @ the rare end of AD drug treatment Patient experience . Like you, they, (AD's), had no prescribed for positive effect and in my Case just made me immediately ill, only after 2x Pills of each type.
Also as with you. My Dr just tried one Pill after another .
When I took those medications for insomnia I found them to cause me to have suicidal thoughts. The Dr's want you think it's from you not the medication. The medication makes you sicker in some cases.