I hope you get this message, I hope you are ok. Please be ok. I’m scared, I can’t hold on much longer. Almost 3 years of suffering every single moment. My mind is wrecked, I will never recover mentally from this. I’m desperate for help. Please, my cat Noah, my everything, my reason is suffering as well and I’m so scared he will leave me soon. I mad a promise to him, if he goes I will be right behind him. I’ve lost everything including my mind. im too weak to take my own but every moment I get closer and closer to making that decision. The dozens of doctors I’ve seen have only broken my fragile heart even more. I won’t to run to them for help but I know I will only be judged, disregarded, disrespected, and dismissed. I don’t know how much longer I can hold hope.