I realize that I'm responding to an old post but I'm new to these discussions I have joined because I just turned 50 and will need a kidney transplant (hopefully from a living donor) in 1-2 years due to my polycystic kidney disease (PKD). I wanted to tell you about a wonderful organization called Griefshare. It is a support group for people who are grieving the loss, through death, of a loved one. You can go to the website and put in your zip code and hopefully there is a group near you. It is a 12 week program but you can attend as many times as you need since grief takes a minimum of one year, often longer, to navigate. The website also has some articles and general information about grief. The groups are run by volunteers (my husband and I have lead several) so if one does not suit you perhaps there will be another in your community to participate in. I truly hope you find a community to walk with you through your grief because no one should do it alone. My first daughter died suddenly at 7 months, my dad died at age 71 from PKD (infection following a kidney transplant), and my brother-in-law died suddenly from cardiomyopathy at age 42. It doesn't matter how many people you have said good-bye to - every grief process is different but none are quick and easy. Please reach out for help.