Dawn,
Thank you for this courageous message. You have opened your heart and exposed the reality of what happens in order for us, the organ recipients, to receive the Gift of Life.

I think (I know) that it is very difficult for a recipient to put into words what they have experienced. And there is a tremendous guilt that recipients experience, along with an unworthiness and the solemn responsibility of caring for those organs. It is extremely difficult to deal with that plus the medical complexities that accompany the prior sickness and the surgical recovery.

I was encouraged to write to my donor family at my 4 month check-up. I did write to my donor family and I did receive a letter in reply that gave me the permission to 'live my life'. That gave me peace. I hope that you will hear from your brother's organ recipients in the future. I want you to enjoy some peace at some time, somewhere in your future.
Love,
Rosemary