Aging Alone—Finding Strength and Connection

I am really alone with no support system. I am also quite old = 90. I am fairly healthy and am able to live independently. My husband died 3 years ago. We were married for 59 years and together for 62 years. My life now is bleak and I really have nothing to look forward to. I stay mostly in the house. I only leave when I need to buy groceries or go to the library. I cry a lot. But that is the way it is and quite likely the way it will be until I die.

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I understand completely. I am alone and do not seem to make friends though I am not difficult, but too well read for many and not interested in gossip or the usual chatterings. No patience for fools, I suppose, I like sardonic, smart humour and words, walks and brain power. But I also look a bit strange due to surgery years ago that left my face slightly unpleasant and just a bit offbalance. People can't get past an aberration, and either embrace it or repel it.

I understand completely. I am alone and do not seem to make friends though I am not difficult, but too well read for many and not interested in gossip or the usual chatterings. No patience for fools, I suppose, I like sardonic, smart humour and words, walks and brain power. But I also look a bit strange due to surgery years ago that left my face slightly unpleasant and just a bit offbalance. People can't get past an aberration, and either embrace it or repel it.

If you live in or near Ventura, perhaps we could walk and talk. Jim

I understand completely. I am alone and do not seem to make friends though I am not difficult, but too well read for many and not interested in gossip or the usual chatterings. No patience for fools, I suppose, I like sardonic, smart humour and words, walks and brain power. But I also look a bit strange due to surgery years ago that left my face slightly unpleasant and just a bit offbalance. People can't get past an aberration, and either embrace it or repel it.

You are very kind. I'm wondering if I wrote that late at night when I couldn't sleep. I recognize it, but it's just a day later, and I'm in a better place. I appreciate your suggestions. I have planned to visit assisted or senior living facilities, but I have a very low house payment and I would like to pass my house along to my son, at least until I am forced to sell it to qualify for medicaid for nursing home if I have to.....I make a few dollars more than the medicaid allowance for Arkansas which is a very low income state. A friend had to move to Denver to qualify for a medicaid senior housing, because the income level is higher. I did get out more before arthritis made walking so painful. I still try to run one errand a day just to leave the house. I went to a senior enrichment class for a few years, too...but it started so early and with sleeping problems and digestive problems, I had to stick around the house early till I'm sure gut issues don't arise. (Sounds like excuses but this is what aging does). Morning church is not possible. I have gone to a Presbyterian Church book study group, but again, the arthritis pain in my hips sitting in a folding chair...even with a cushion became uncomfortable. This sounds so negative....but actually, my grandson called me this morning and asked if I wanted to go out to lunch or brunch. We did. He was so sweet....eating out costs me sometimes more than I need to spend and he doesn't realize that. But it was so worth being with him. So even though I am often as sad as I sounded in what I posted, a good morning like today makes it worthwhile. Because my son is going through his second divorce and is stuck in a house he hasn't been able to sell and isn't suitable for me, I am sticking here until something changes for him. We may have to combine homes (despite the fact I only have a 2 BR) One day at a time...sometime a good day and sometimes not so good. Thank you for your encouragement. Blessings to you for caring for your dad and condolences for the loss of your brother....TOO young. My son is 62, and I do worry about his health. Maggy

I am an introvert. I like weekly scheduled walks with a friend and scheduled get togethers every week with family.

And you have us! Hugs