I was 63 when I had my transplant and went through some of what you did , 40 blood transfusions at least plus acites which was unstoppable towards the end I was given 5 days to live 3 years later I’m here and healthy my meld was in the 30s and stage 4 kidney failure and considered near death, stop all drinking drugs weed everything and get on the list otherwise you won’t be considered, will your life ever be the same probably not it’s a big commitment for a life time, I went through absolute hell and hope I can help others that have to go through this, I’ve never met a person that has a transplant this is a great group