Thank you Sue for your kind and wise encouragement! I do hope I can manage to get ahold of this anxiety in the process of all these scans and surveillance... I do have support and I am a believer so I ultimately believe I will be okay whatever comes. My husband who has lived with me 27 years and knows how I am always reminds me to get a grip on my fears by saying "you can't worry about DYING to the point that it interferes with your LIVING." So alas, here is another opportunity for me to learn to let go of the things I cannot control! I appreciate your reply very much and will continue to post updates in case they are helpful to anyone else. This is a wonderful community of people giving support to each other and a great resource to help us know we are not alone! Wishing you good health!