LC Is Just Overwhelming

Hi everyone. New to the group. 28 years old. I was 24 when this started.

Picture it: January 2021. I was 24 years old. And it was a Sunday, I developed a cough. Come Monday, I had a cough and some sniffles, so I told my boss I was working from home. By midday, I had flu symptoms, and just felt yucky. So I decided to go to the hospital. Got a COVID diagnosis. Okay, so got home. Quarantined, took my meds. Come Wednesday of the same week, I noticed some wheezing and my lungs hurting. Went back to the same hospital. Got COVID and COVID pneumonia. Got another antibiotic and was sent home.

*****Trigger warning from this point on: So, come Friday of the same week, I was gasping for air if I moved at all. I couldn't walk 5 feet down our hall way without bent over begging to breathe. I was shaking with a fever while wearing 2 of everything and a hoodie and a blanket. My family decides enough and pack me a bag and make me get in the car. Get to a new hospital about an hour and a half away, and I have to walk in alone. So, anyway, I'm not there 15 minutes and they have me on oxygen because my O2 is at 60%. Within the hour they say they're admitting me, and asked if I had family waiting. They made my family bring my bag to the door, and I didn't even get to say bye myself. I spent 16 hours in the ER before I get a room. By the time I get to a room, I'm puking blood. By 3am, I'm being told that they need to induce a coma or otherwise my lungs won't heal because they are working to hard to keep me alive. I'm puking hard by this point. And they ask me if I want them to keep me alive if something happens. I'm 24!!! I said that they better keep me alive and sign the paperwork. A nurse walks over to take my hand and keep me distracted while they knock me out. At 3:30am they call my family to tell them I've been put on the ventilator. I spent 9 days on the vent. During that time, I had COVID, COVID pneumonia, a bacterial pneumonia, and ventilator pneumonia. All of this infection caused me to go septic and make my organs give out. I had a heart attack and died for 36 minutes.

I spent 3 months in CCU, and was transfered to an intensive inpatient physical therapy center. I spent 2 weeks there. And finally was sent home with oxygen. I spent 6 months in outpatient physical therapy 3x a week, and had lung, heart, etc. docs in between those.

We are now 4 years later, and life hasn't gotten any better. I'm currently jobless due to LC and can't seem to get disability.

I say all that because I just need a community that understands where I'm coming from. Because at 28 years old, I feel like a failure. After works as hard as I have in my life. Here I am.