Has LC decimated anyone's life?

Hello all,
I'm a 56 yr old male who's life has been decimated due to COVID
My life has been ruined and I have nothing left.
I had COVID back on February 14, 2020
It was bad and I should have gone to the hospital but was more worried about bankrupting my family. I had a small stroke and have excessive white matter on my brain.
Since then, I have suffered with extreme anxiety, fatigue, memory and cognitive issues. My ADHD symptoms are off the charts and I've been plagued with apathy towards most everything.
I owned a business and when I returned to work 4 weeks after contracting COVID, as I unlocked the door I thought to myself..."I don't feel like I can do this anymore". I brushed it off and got back to work.
Fast forward 4+years and I've lost my business, I have hundreds of thousands of dollars of debt, My alcohol use went from a couple glasses of wine in the evening to relax to drinking a 1.75 L of vodka every 24 hours. I ended up in detox 3 times. One good note...I haven't had a drink in 8 months.
The stress of not being able to run my business due to cognitive issues led to the increased drinking. The LC symptoms coupled with the drinking caused me to lose employees and clients. I was evicted from the shop I'd been on for 12 years after my landlord patiently let me get 5 months behind on rent.
I had also moved 2 hours away and was trying to move by business there. I was working and staying in a camper at my work during the week and going home to be with my wife on the weekends. Due to the issues at work I was having to stay longer and longer periods of time away from home... Trying to keep the business alive. I also lost the shop that I was moving into due to non payment.
At this point my wife thought I was cheating and trying to stay away which absolutely was not the case. I have never and would never do that to her, but can understand how it might feel that way to her.
Sorry this is so long winded...
During this downward spiral my wife had her daughter grab everything off my desk when I was in detox for the 3rd time. In the mail she discovered a letter stating that my house was about to be sold in 2 weeks due to unpaid property taxes and I was in default on business loans. I was such a mess that I had been neglecting bills and due to my cognitive issues I had actually thought that I was fairly caught up on everything but I was completely wrong.
Also during this 4-year span my wife started feeling like I didn't care about her anymore. I suffer from complete apathy towards everything, not personal towards her and was just watching my life swirl down the drain and not able to do anything about it. I did and still do care for her and love her but I definitely wasn't showing it at the time. All this led to a divorce... partially to protect her from the fallout. I love her and want to stay together but she's taken all this personally and doesn't understand that these are symptoms... Not how I really feel. She's extremely angry with me.
Also during these 4 years I lost my Mom and then 2 years later my Dad. And to top it off when my mom was in hospice dying, my only brother who I thought was not only a brother but a friend decided to tell my wife how horrible of a person he thought I was. I had no idea this is how he felt and it cut me to the core and at that point I cut him out of my life.
So here I am today.... I haven't worked in 8 months due to cognitive issues. I went from making 6 figures to basically 0. I'm on Medicaid. I'm divorced, I lost my house. I have no family or friends... Just my dogs ❤️
I'm deeply depressed, constantly fatigued, riddled with anxiety, overwhelming ADHD symptoms, suffer from sexual disfunction, extreme apathy My memory is shot. I forget things immediately. I can't think straight or figure things out. I make terrible decisions. I'm always short of breath, weak and in pain.
I've been seeing Dr's, I'm in therapy and seeing a psychiatrist. It's taken me 6 months to get an appointment at a memory clinic which is actually coming up next week Thank God. I have an appointment with neurology at the end of December. I've been praying and going to church 🙏
I feel stuck, hopeless and lost. I don't get any support from my wife(ex) just anger.
I want to be together and try to figure out how to manage my situation, with her support. I don't know what to do. I have lost everything. I feel useless as a person and as a man. I have nothing to offer. Sometimes I think I would be better off dead. I have life insurance so I know that would be beneficial to my wife (ex).
The guilt I carry is overwhelming.

If you made it to the end, I thank you for listening/reading to my story.
God bless you all
I know everyone is suffering in their own way 🙏