I'm so sorry for your loss. We have had pets our entire marriage (36 years) except for about 4 months last year when we lost out "last" cat. I wanted a break from the responsibility of a pet along with caring for my DH. Long story short, we now have an older cat whose owner died. I just couldn't resist having a furry companion and I'm so glad to have him. I hope, when you are ready, you will find another companion to share your home with. For now, enjoy sharing the years of good memories with those around you. ❤️