Has LC decimated anyone's life?

@papapaul
Reading this is heartbreaking. Covid destroyed you life. I wish there was someone or someplace that could be held responsible for the hell it has put some of us through, along with our families, friends, businesses and finances.
Covid left me feeling similarly to how you feel. I was lucky enough to be able to retire and collect Social Security so the financial aspect wasn't as devastating as yours is.
I'm not unapathetic, but I am very much just not interested. In friends, hobbies, taking care of my home or myself. I do love my dogs and my son has been a blessing.
I don't have any advice for you except try to see if your ex will go to counseling with you. You need a cheerleader!
Covid ruined our lives, although I am greatful to be alive after 3 weeks, intubated in ICU in 2023.

Thank you for your kind words. I have suggested couples counseling/therapy many many times with no luck. She has an aversion to therapy as she is dealing with her own demons and has PTSD from the past and feels like bringing them up would be more harmful than good.
I told her we don't need to bring up the past (which I already know) unless in the moment she decides she's okay to... Let's just focus on US, in the here and now and what we can do to understand each other, move past the hurt and try to rebuild. I completely understand why she feels the way she does and I feel horribly about it. I have told her over and over it's not how I really feel...My symptoms ( apathy, depression etc) are to blame. I didn't and would never hurt her intentionally.
I know that she has PTSD from previous things in her life and had endured more emotional pain from it than anyone should. I wanted to be the one person in her life that didn't hurt her. That took care of her in every way possible, but due to an evil virus, ended up hurting her, although unintentionally.
I'm rambling again. I haven't been able to fully get my thoughts out, even in therapy. Sessions are never long enough and always get sidetracked and/or I forget what I was trying to say 😔

Stay strong. I know it is very hard, I live with it daily. You are not alone.

@papapaul, it was hard to read all that you have been through. It may not seem like it right now, but you’ve shown remarkable strength to help yourself on the road to recovery. Congratulations on not having had a drink in 8 months. You sought the help of addictions services, you are seeing a therapist and psychiatrist. This shows strength and the will to get better both mentally and physically.

It may not always feel like you’re moving forward. There will be setbacks or things might not move as fast as you want. Your health, lost relationships and loved, and finances pose hurdles to overcome. That can’t be easy. But you are doing it.

Should you need to talk to someone don’t forget that is someone standing by 24/7 on the crisis line. All you have to do is call or text 988. https://988lifeline.org/

Was it helpful to write out your story?

My first thought after reading what has happened to your life: When you think you have come to the end, that is the beginning.

You are taking big bold steps by cutting out an addiction for 8 months. You are in therapy. You are seeing a psychiatrist. You have lost everything. So now you are free to make a clean start with your life. You are seeing physicians about your health. Do not look back. If you do, you will only calcify and get stuck. Keep moving forward. You are making so many strides!

Thank you for the positive and uplifting words.
My biggest struggle is the fact that my cognitive issues are so severe that I am unable to work or start a new business and I don't know how to deal with that.
I've always been extremely self-sufficient -quick-minded. Now I can't remember anything I have post-it notes to remind me of post-it notes.
I truly don't know how to survive financially

I'm so sorry for all you've been through. Truly devastating.
Beating addiction is a huge accomplishment, so congratulations on that achievement.
I'm glad you have your dogs as companions. My girl died well before I got covid in 2020. I can still work, but it's very difficult.
My heart goes out to you. You are not alone.

I just want to tell you how sorry I am that you’ve suffered so much and for so long! I do hope you get the help you need and once things get straightened out, maybe there is hope for you and your x. I wish you all the best and congratulations on being alcohol free for 8 months! That’s quite an accomplishment!

Wow. I’m not the only one everyone left because they didn’t understand! They say everyone hurts. I said it’s a different kind of feeling of burning, stabbing, radiating like electric blotches of bad pain. I had just left a 24 yr marriage that I wanted rid of long before. I had never been alone. Well like you I learned lonely quickly. Everyone left me even my dog died. If someone don’t feel what we feel they have no idea. I have so many symptoms from LC 1/1/22. My hips and legs literally give out and causes me to fall so I can’t do much walking and my mind is leaving quickly this year or so. I can’t remember what I just wrote. Probably took me a hour to write this. I could read it tomorrow and not know I wrote it. It’s scary. A friend from 30 yrs ago came to see me in Feb and he’s taken care of me pretty much since. It’s the worse having been one that got it the worse. I didn’t want to live and sometimes still think I don’t. I have no life and now not even my daughter or family since they don’t believe me. If something happens to my friend (in another state working) idk what I’ll do. I hope you find some healing my friend!