UPDATE: Narcissistic partner, struggling to cope as I am leaving.

Hi all. I did leave, I can't believe it, but I did! When I posted first, I planned to go in 2 weeks, it took 5 weeks. I am missing my partner, I am so sad, tired, and worried about my future, but deep down in my guts, I know I made the right choice. I don't think all I had was a trauma bond, there was a real connection, lots of good times, our love for our cats and losing them bonded us, and ease of traveling together. 10 years of life. But, the cheating, the drinking, the way he can switch, like Jekyll and Hyde. I learned, to know more about people, get in a car with them, and let them drive. Watch how they drive and treat other drivers on the road. He always feels entitled and thinks everyone drives badly, and should give him way, inpatient, and points out everyone's mistakes. He would not think that people are different, and that some people need more time to do their stuff on the road. If someone cut in front of him, it would enrage him. He always drives with lights on during day time. He told me this is for safety, but I think it is to intimidate people. Anyway, I do feel lost and really missing the home I left, I need strength to stay away from him and build my life again. If anyone going through the same or did in the past and wants to chat about it, do write a private message. I don't really talk to anyone about it, just my manager, so she knows why I am not myself at the moment. Thank you for reading my story.