Bipolar will anyone talk to me about it

I am sorry you are dealing with this. Your son may be taking advantage of you financially. He knows you feel bad for him, so he manipulates those feelings. Did you know there is a support group that goes alongside AA or NA? It is called Al-Anon. It is meant for help for the person dealing with an addictive family member. Many churches have AA, NA and Al-Anon groups. But these groups are not based in religion. I grew up with an alcoholic dad. He found help in AA,, and my mother's sanity was saved through going to Al-Anon while my Dad went to AA meetings. Of course, finding out more about these ideas is just a computer click away. Hugs to you!

I have been that son, alcohol, drugs, mental illness and prison.

The best thing my mother ever did for me was to stop enabling me. Twice she has refused to let me come home.

Both times led to forty total years of sobriety.

You have received excellent advice on this board. You will meet people who understand your situation at Al-Anon,

As a parent of four wonderful children I can understand that for me the guilt that could fuel enabling my children looks like love, but for me it is fear.

I say this for me and only me.

Most parents I know would take their child’s place in hell and I’m no different. Sometimes that means I have to accept that they may not want anything to do with me.

It’s been ten years so far.

You’ve taken a big step reaching out. I hope you can find the hope to reach out to Al-Anon.

Find the peace you deserve.

Most of the comments are from people dealing with a bipolar loved one.
I have bipolar 1 and struggle with many of the issues your son has. Anger/rage is probably my worst problem and I can go from 0 to 1000 in a microsecond. To others it seemingly comes out of nowhere and is unprovoked. However, I usually feel my anger/rage episodes are justified, though they cause me many problems. I have pushed away just about everyone in my life and hurt my daughter, whom I love very much. It is extremely frustrating that no one sees my perspective. This causes me to withdrawal socially and isolate from everyone. I feel the world is against me, but sometimes am also embarrassed by my behavior. I never fit in. No one understands me. I hate life and think often about how I want to leave this world. If not for my daughter, I would very quickly. People get angry if I even mention how I feel.
It is very difficult to explain to others what it is like.
Chaotic thoughts, intense emotions in constant flux. Frustration that no one understands, and instead, attacks, judges, accuses, and blames you. You get this sickening feeling in the pit of your stomach at the realization that it has happened agsin. You said or did something that made someone uncomfortable with, afraid of, or annoyed at you. The lack of compassion and unwillingness of others to attempt to understand or help drives you deeper into depression. What is wrong with me? Why do people not want to be around me? Why is life so hard? Why can't I be normal?
It is really discouraging when people don't believe you. They say that everybody has mood swings. They think you are making it up or trying to get attention. They hold you accountable as if it is all in your control. They don't realize how hard it is to fight everyday to do what others do naturally. To regulate your emotions, interact with others, control your impulses and behavior. To just basically function in society. And you have to take meds with horrible side effects, go to therapy, and see a psychiatrist, all for the rest of your life. Maintaining relationships is impossible. Sometimes it is easier to give up. Withdrawal. Stop struggling. The anger turns into sadness, then despair.