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Have you've been anxious most of your entire adult life?

Posted by nhbfan @nhbfan, Aug 22 2:47am

Me too 🙁

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Barco@2194 | @wgatap21 | Aug 23 7:10am
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I have suffered from anxiety for most of my life, I always worried about everything, had too much fear about many things and my nature was usually pessimistic. I would never understand why I was like this, I couldn’t identify with anyone else in the family that felt like this…I went through therapy for years to find the answers I so desperately needed but it wasn’t enough. I was diagnosed with lung cancer 4 years ago and started going deeper into anxiety and depression, my fears were many and probably not so unique when it came to cancer but there was so much more. A number of years ago I started having nightmares and they were very real, not filled with irrational fears but real events that happened to me in my early years as a very young child … what I discovered was that my older brother was very abusive towards me, he started hurting me even when I was a little toddler, it got worse over time and there were incidents where he was a threat to my life. I don’t want to relate all the things that happened but it was devastating to have all these memories come pouring back to me, of course I had no idea what to do or where to go. I made a foolish decision to try and talk to him about it but he denied everything and went on to tell family members that I had mental issues and even tried to get my children involved. I have pulled back from trying anymore and now I’m going to try therapy again so I can move forward. I believe that all the repressed memories were affecting my whole life and though I have some insight to this I will have to continue to try and get back some of my good traits with help, a long story for a long life.

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ros0142 | @ros0142 | Aug 24 11:46am

I have suffered with anxiety since I can remember as a child and only in the last 10 years have I actually saw treatment to some extent with some success and I’m 56 years old now, but still suffer from it are better than others for sure but it’s definitely a tough one

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daun44 | @daun44 | Aug 24 5:50pm
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I too have suffered with anxiety and depression since early grade school and now am working with a therapist for me PTSD. As a child I banged my head on my pillow at night and side of the mattress by dat. I could cry thru a whole day of school.When my brother beat me my father punished me for crying. My brother became an alcoholic and I dumped him out of my life.If your brother is a narcissist he will never believe he did anything wrong.Get him out of your head. I've been in therapy 6 times in my life and I'm 68. Don't be afraid to go to a psych for medication. If you get angry at your parents or brother that's a good thing , you're on your way. Be exceedingly kind to yourself. It's a long journey back. Be very careful who you allow into your life.Exercise, take long walks in nature, cut out sugar and get enough sleep. Don't take on any caregiving responsibilities. It's all about you now.Remember it's not the destination it's the journey . There's a lot of emotions to work through. I wish healing for all of us.

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moianna1 | @moianna1 | Aug 28 2:56pm
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Not just adult life....Since about fourth grade...And that was a looong time ago!

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Yes. My entire life and I am 83 years old!

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susie4397 | @susie4397 | Sep 2 7:57am

Yes, ever since childhood, the creeping feeling of anxiety is there, along with it's best friend, over-thinking.

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celia16 | @celia16 | Sep 3 8:43am

I have had bothersome anxiety that was not normal since I was about 6 years old. I just started therapy last year and it’s helping. In my case, it’s genetic and environmentally related, imo.

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dfb | @dfb | Sep 4 11:40am

I suffered a psychotic break at six that persisted on some level all my life.

I know now that a heightened awareness made me highly empathetic. Empathy is considered good but it’s just a thing, neither good nor bad, like a car that can perform at high speeds it an be very useful and it can kill me.

I see it for what it is now. I can focus it on the beauty of life and everything and everyone in it.

Enhanced empathy can be a gift if I can stop judging everything as good or bad and just see everything for what it is; then I can choose,

I choose love now.

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