I just got done reading the side effects of the first 3 meds that you mentioned. They were enough to make anyone panic. I am quite sure the remainder were the same.
I am 76 this month. I have made enough bad choices in my life with the results that followed, that are enough to make me feel like you do. I am not going to say that I have nil anxiety, but it is a small percentage of what you have I would bet anything, that things that have occurred in my life are very likely worse than your list. I would love to be able to meet you face to face and discuss but not realistic.
I am not telling you what to do, but those drugs are making you worse. The psychiatrist is not helping.
Here are my thoughts and what I do to have a bucket load more peace than you do.
1 The first time I had severe depression in my 20's due to a bad marriage, I asked my pastor for the name of the loneliest woman at church. She lived near me, and I went to visit her, and I started talking and cried my eyes out. Then she cried the same. Then she told me a bit about herself, and we both laughed until we about wet our pants. Just one example. Find people worse off than you, and listen to them and help them.
2 Every morning and every night before sleeping, review your day, and thank God for every tiny positive thing you have, what health you do have, and pray for those who need help, tell Him about all your troubles nd ask God for help.
3 Get to know God and His son, by reading the Bible every day. Psalms, Proverbs for wisdom, New Testament for how to have peace regarding your future and give your life to Him. Search and read wherever until you understand something and God has spoken to you. He is more than able.
4 Ask God for friends that will listen to you and be uplifting. Be their friend also.
5 I never take drugs. A tiny aspirin if heart acts up. I face and deal with my problems head on. I would not want to have a heart monitor on my wrist etc. as that would make me focus on the problem and make it worse.
6 Put your life in God's hands and trust Him to guide you. If you draw near to Him, He will draw near to you.