Depression and Anxiety at an older age

I can relate. It seems things are 'going off the rails'. But, then, I pause.....
When I was much younger, there were 'other' things happening in the world. It was the Space Race; The Cold War; Krutszchek(sp?) at the UN; Bay of Pigs; the Vietnam War; grocery store comparisons of the cost of a basket of goods to educate consumers etc, etc.
I still remember b&w tv; watching the televised first step on the moon; cheap gas; the new trend of pre-prepared meals 'Hungry Man' to heat up in the oven; when I was first able to use a computer at work (one for the entire department, all pre-internet).
Now the world is much smaller.

Anymore, I tend to favor a view that things were off the rails then, just in different ways. Communication was closer to home, we weren't privy of wacked out people commiting hideous crimes and behavior like we see these days.
I'm so glad I traveled overseas during college - so much is changed.
I wouldn't backpacked to Europe for 2 months by myself with a plan to meet a college friend on the famous bridge in Venice on a certain day/time & visited places that are less politically stable or outright hostile toward Americans.
Anymore, I find myself having a greater awareness of just about everything.
Some things I've become hypervigilant about. Health, wishing I'd listened to my mother's words of caution/guidance. I nearly lost 4 fingers to a snow blower - now I have a much better understanding of how a lot of "things' work. Not just mechanical things, but relationships, finance, doing my own home improvements, etc., etc.
I'm here writing this to you b/c I 'need' to be around good people who sees things as they are but can socialize, be polite, pleasant and so much more.

I wish all the best for you and those you love. Enjoy the little things of life, love, smile (more easily) - you are not alone.
Look up the prayer of St.
Francis of Assi, Dream BIG, pay it forward -- best wishes

To bustrbrwn22: I agree with you. I was taking 2 mg of lorazepam (Ativan) for years, along with an antidepressant. I had no adverse side effects and was coasting along happily until my physician retired. Then my new physician directed me to taper of lorazepam and changed my prescription. He triggered a negative reaction that brought back my anxiety. I told him that lorazepam had never caused me any harm. I'm over 80 and, physically, I'm in good condition. He replied that benzodiazepines like lorazepam can increase the risk of falls and accident. That's true. I was aware of that and have always been very careful. But I'm willing to risk a fall in exchange for peace of mind.

If you are 80 and doing that well, I hear you!! When I am anxious and depressed nothing seems important enough to get out of bed for! Hence no fall …
Think that’s what he meant?!

I agree 100 % with you. The alternatives don’t justify a possible suicide. Find someone who will allow you to enjoy what you have left in your life.

I agree that reading is good as it takes you to many places & eras, but volunteering is the
best!
You are contributing to society & learning about others & their problems= should
take you out of yourself for awhile. Days can be VERY long with not enough to do.
Kay