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Aren't you tired of living and waiting for things to get better?

Posted by carrotbunny @carrotbunny, May 10 10:23am

I'm tired and I just want to die already. I don't know how to bring back my enthusiasm. I wake up wishing that I didn't wake up. I want to die in my sleep. I'm so so tired. Exhausted.

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justjudy | @justjudy | May 18 2:23pm
In reply to @jobycat "I live with a person that has extreme OCD. I have my own struggles with agoraphobia..." + (show)
@jobycat

I live with a person that has extreme OCD. I have my own struggles with agoraphobia and PTSD. It is hard for me to go on at times. i listen to unhinged rants everyday. Screaming and yelling. I dont know how much more I can take. I have lost all desire for life. All I want to do is sleep and not wake up. Out of option at 58 I have no help. I guess I dont count anyway.

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Please don't tell yourself that you don't count, you do count, you are just reacting to your surroundings which do not sound very pleasant... maybe you need to go out on your own if that is something you can afford, go out and sit in the sun as much as you can, it does help the mood anyd walk, walk, and walk some more, if you are agoraphobic or find it hard to go out, drive to a lake or a nice walking park, that you can enjoy peace and quiet, just listen to the sounds of nature, it is better then any antidepressant, you have to force youself though and that is the hard part, but once you do this, you will look forward to your daily walk. If I had to listen to rants al day long I would feel the same way. Do you have a therapist ? I had severe panic/anxiety issues yrs ago and a Psychiatrist helped me the most rather the a therapist, he did put me on an age old drug back then which worked wonders for my agoraphobis ( had that for a short time) it is called Disiprimine, old drug but I swear that gave me my life back and visits with him. I wass on that for about 15 yrs. then i decided to ween myself off of it and see what happens and I was fine, I do get depressive periods and really have to push myself , at times i wished I had continued the med but I am ok , once I am out, I have heart issues now so that makes me tired šŸ™ i am much older than you are, i only wish I were your age again, you are way too young to feel this way about life, but not too young to do something about it. Make goals, like if at all possible, get your own place for peace of mind, do the things i mentioned to see it that might help but above all, we care .

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justjudy | @justjudy | May 18 2:27pm
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@justjudy

Please don't tell yourself that you don't count, you do count, you are just reacting to your surroundings which do not sound very pleasant... maybe you need to go out on your own if that is something you can afford, go out and sit in the sun as much as you can, it does help the mood anyd walk, walk, and walk some more, if you are agoraphobic or find it hard to go out, drive to a lake or a nice walking park, that you can enjoy peace and quiet, just listen to the sounds of nature, it is better then any antidepressant, you have to force youself though and that is the hard part, but once you do this, you will look forward to your daily walk. If I had to listen to rants al day long I would feel the same way. Do you have a therapist ? I had severe panic/anxiety issues yrs ago and a Psychiatrist helped me the most rather the a therapist, he did put me on an age old drug back then which worked wonders for my agoraphobis ( had that for a short time) it is called Disiprimine, old drug but I swear that gave me my life back and visits with him. I wass on that for about 15 yrs. then i decided to ween myself off of it and see what happens and I was fine, I do get depressive periods and really have to push myself , at times i wished I had continued the med but I am ok , once I am out, I have heart issues now so that makes me tired šŸ™ i am much older than you are, i only wish I were your age again, you are way too young to feel this way about life, but not too young to do something about it. Make goals, like if at all possible, get your own place for peace of mind, do the things i mentioned to see it that might help but above all, we care .

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PS: Not sure you can do this but Volunteering really helps me... I did all kind of volunteering work from my early 20's , from children to elderly... makes you sometimes forget about your own problems while helping others.. Start small .

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jobycat | @jobycat | May 18 2:40pm

Yeah, I survive on ssdi. The only place I can afford is here. She makes me pay the light bill and rent and food and I cant even eat. I am down 20lbs. I have no desire to wake up. Every morning i am sad. I know I will have to endure another day of the ridicule and hate. I drink cough syrup to sleep as much as I can. I have No options. I dont even have a key to the front door. I dont count

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justjudy | @justjudy | May 18 3:11pm

I do not know both sides of the story but my next question would be , if you are paying the rent, food and electric, why can't you take yous SSDI and get your own place, doesn't really make sense .... I do wish you the best, hoping your situation changes.

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pache | @pache | May 19 12:49am

I have felt that way as far back as I can remember. My Dog, he was my last because of my age (will be 80 this year) had to be put to sleep on November 11. I adopted him at age 3, a very damaged dog provided a home by a damaged human. He was my purpose in life. I have spent my entire life doing for others and I too am exhausted. I am tired of professionals who think they can ā€œfixā€ many of us. My only Brother took his life at the age of 27. I have 3 kids who I raised on my own after their Father found a GF and left me. Oldest age 7 and youngest age 1. They are not in my life but seems to think their Dad can ā€œwalk on water.ā€ My 4 legged Soulmate was a 15 1/2 year old Lab which did not have to be put to sleep b/c of his heart issue. He did b/c of something I allowed my Vet to doā€¦Something I felt was a bad idea, but I went along with the plan. He has been dead now for 6 months and the guilt I feel is killing me. I cry every time I think of failing himā€¦

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dfb | @dfb | May 19 7:43am

We treat our pets better than we treat our fellow humans. If I were the family dog, Iā€™d have been put down by now.

I donā€™t want to keep trying to get better. I want my life over and Iā€™d like the end not to be violent.

Itā€™s Sunday morning, the worst time of the week for me. I try to remember that Iā€™ll feel a little better as the day goes on.

Or is it that I just get used to it. I guess it doesnā€™t matter.

I have come to believe that all mental illness is a symptom of an underlying problem with the brain,

All that my doctors seem to be able to do is treat those symptoms. Hopefully one day weā€™ll figure out what those problems are.

No one should have to live the way many of us do. And we are in a country with the most advanced neuroscience in the world,

What is to become of those who suffer where there is no understanding.

If there is a God please help us all.

I hope everyone can find peace.

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Ginger, Volunteer Mentor | @gingerw | May 19 10:49am
In reply to @justjudy "Please don't tell yourself that you don't count, you do count, you are just reacting to..." + (show)
@justjudy

Please don't tell yourself that you don't count, you do count, you are just reacting to your surroundings which do not sound very pleasant... maybe you need to go out on your own if that is something you can afford, go out and sit in the sun as much as you can, it does help the mood anyd walk, walk, and walk some more, if you are agoraphobic or find it hard to go out, drive to a lake or a nice walking park, that you can enjoy peace and quiet, just listen to the sounds of nature, it is better then any antidepressant, you have to force youself though and that is the hard part, but once you do this, you will look forward to your daily walk. If I had to listen to rants al day long I would feel the same way. Do you have a therapist ? I had severe panic/anxiety issues yrs ago and a Psychiatrist helped me the most rather the a therapist, he did put me on an age old drug back then which worked wonders for my agoraphobis ( had that for a short time) it is called Disiprimine, old drug but I swear that gave me my life back and visits with him. I wass on that for about 15 yrs. then i decided to ween myself off of it and see what happens and I was fine, I do get depressive periods and really have to push myself , at times i wished I had continued the med but I am ok , once I am out, I have heart issues now so that makes me tired šŸ™ i am much older than you are, i only wish I were your age again, you are way too young to feel this way about life, but not too young to do something about it. Make goals, like if at all possible, get your own place for peace of mind, do the things i mentioned to see it that might help but above all, we care .

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@justjudy Welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect. You packed a lot of very wise words in your response. Thank you.
Ginger

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esikora | @esikora | May 20 6:56am
In reply to @dfb "We treat our pets better than we treat our fellow humans. If I were the family..." + (show)
@dfb

We treat our pets better than we treat our fellow humans. If I were the family dog, Iā€™d have been put down by now.

I donā€™t want to keep trying to get better. I want my life over and Iā€™d like the end not to be violent.

Itā€™s Sunday morning, the worst time of the week for me. I try to remember that Iā€™ll feel a little better as the day goes on.

Or is it that I just get used to it. I guess it doesnā€™t matter.

I have come to believe that all mental illness is a symptom of an underlying problem with the brain,

All that my doctors seem to be able to do is treat those symptoms. Hopefully one day weā€™ll figure out what those problems are.

No one should have to live the way many of us do. And we are in a country with the most advanced neuroscience in the world,

What is to become of those who suffer where there is no understanding.

If there is a God please help us all.

I hope everyone can find peace.

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Yup,I get it. The sun's shining, the flowers are blooming, the birds are chirping....So what?
A have a lovely garden that's just a chore,a liitle sportscar that I used to love driving, art supplies lying around from when I used to paint and draw...no joy anymore.
The mornings are especially bad. I'm retired, live alone and I have to force myself to get out and go for a walk in the woods. At least there's some peace there.

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kayraymat | @kayraymat | May 21 8:38am

Women live longer which is both a blessing & can be a curse. We outlive pets, friends, neighbors, relatives, and spouses.
My one thought is looking for new one's.....even for relatives, as I know those who have found them on Ancestry & such. Volunteer work is another way to both connect with others & contribute to your community. Seek & maybe you will find new joys. Good luck. Kay

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kayraymat | @kayraymat | May 21 8:41am
In reply to @justjudy "Please don't tell yourself that you don't count, you do count, you are just reacting to..." + (show)
@justjudy

Please don't tell yourself that you don't count, you do count, you are just reacting to your surroundings which do not sound very pleasant... maybe you need to go out on your own if that is something you can afford, go out and sit in the sun as much as you can, it does help the mood anyd walk, walk, and walk some more, if you are agoraphobic or find it hard to go out, drive to a lake or a nice walking park, that you can enjoy peace and quiet, just listen to the sounds of nature, it is better then any antidepressant, you have to force youself though and that is the hard part, but once you do this, you will look forward to your daily walk. If I had to listen to rants al day long I would feel the same way. Do you have a therapist ? I had severe panic/anxiety issues yrs ago and a Psychiatrist helped me the most rather the a therapist, he did put me on an age old drug back then which worked wonders for my agoraphobis ( had that for a short time) it is called Disiprimine, old drug but I swear that gave me my life back and visits with him. I wass on that for about 15 yrs. then i decided to ween myself off of it and see what happens and I was fine, I do get depressive periods and really have to push myself , at times i wished I had continued the med but I am ok , once I am out, I have heart issues now so that makes me tired šŸ™ i am much older than you are, i only wish I were your age again, you are way too young to feel this way about life, but not too young to do something about it. Make goals, like if at all possible, get your own place for peace of mind, do the things i mentioned to see it that might help but above all, we care .

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You have a WONDERFUL attitude! A very encouraging reply & sage advice.
One does have to go out & look for help. What is the saying?
"Can't hurt to try."

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