What brought you joy today?

Learning more about my (new to me) Ramírez classical guitar.

When I was diagnosed with stage-4 cancer in 2021, I didn't see the point of doing anything like buying a new musical instrument — I just wanted to get my affairs in order to make things easier for my family.

Now, as we approach 2025, I dare to dream of a future again, even if it's far from assured. If it turns out I'm wrong, I'll have to deal with that when it happens, but hope and joy are powerful medicine that I was denying myself at first.

Hi Steve, I'm with you on the roller coaster. My main emotion is anger and I fierce, scary fierce. I'm not completely rational and I don't recognize it until it's passed. Last week I was on a war path and nearly fired all my doctors.

I have received 5 of 6 chemotherapy treatments. I had one yesterday and I spoke to my oncologist about my volatile emotions. He said it narmol part of the experience. My body is under attack because of the drug being infused in me. He was very reassuring that this is an accurate problem with and end date.

I find exercise and accomplishing any task will make me feel better.

After this phase is completed I guess the next is phase weit and see how the therapy worked. We are dealing with cancer in a brave new world. There are so many remarkable treatment options and genetic testing that points to who will benefit from which treatment. Even a recurrence is as terrible as it used to be. It opens up a new world of treatment options

I'm in a good space today, but about 5 days following treatment and a for a week I'm not right. I'm emotional out of control, but it's coming to an end.

Keep up the positive action. Godspeed to you.
Denise

Hi Steve, I'm with you on the roller coaster. My main emotion is anger and I fierce, scary fierce. I'm not completely rational and I don't recognize it until it's passed. Last week I was on a war path and nearly fired all my doctors.

I have received 5 of 6 chemotherapy treatments. I had one yesterday and I spoke to my oncologist about my volatile emotions. He said it narmol part of the experience. My body is under attack because of the drug being infused in me. He was very reassuring that this is an accurate problem with and end date.

I find exercise and accomplishing any task will make me feel better.

After this phase is completed I guess the next is phase weit and see how the therapy worked. We are dealing with cancer in a brave new world. There are so many remarkable treatment options and genetic testing that points to who will benefit from which treatment. Even a recurrence is as terrible as it used to be. It opens up a new world of treatment options

I'm in a good space today, but about 5 days following treatment and a for a week I'm not right. I'm emotional out of control, but it's coming to an end.

Keep up the positive action. Godspeed to you.
Denise

I'm so sorry. Some days the joy is hard to find.

A patch of marigolds against a west-facing foundation of my house is still in full bloom in late November in Ontario, Canada (!!!). Those are unneeded seedlings that I didn't have the heart to throw out, so I put them in a bit of empty dirt. We've had several frosts (including a couple of deep ones), but they don't seem to mind.

I don't always realize it at times, but I know I was down for a while, guess that's why we call it a roller coaster. Today I feel so much better. I get it, it's cancer, nobody said it would be an easy ride. I'm in a good mind set today, also, I did a small project in the garage, yes before it wouldn't of taken as long, but it did make me feel good. Also rake a small pile of leaves left over in the back and brought down to the street for pick up. I like to come here to share and at the same time its rewarding to myself. A big shout out to North for coming up with the idea. It helps all of us. Best to all.

I saw a few remaining petunias blooming and savored the brilliant purple and white colors among the mostly withered remaining flowers.
I'm in SE Pennsylvania.