Questions as I make progress against the anxiety
Recovery issues: I have tolerated generalized anxiety and social anxiety disorder since I was 12. In retirement 50 years later, I decided for the first time a couple of months ago to address it with meds. As I make progress against the anxiety, I have gained some mild depression. I think, and my therapist agrees, is likely reaction to having suffered the anxiety so long, my mind, having difficulty figuring out how to approach the world without the anxiety feels a void. I also have anxiety about not feeling anxiety. I’d like to hear from others who may have come through the same kind of confusion on how long it might have taken to get over it and successful therapies for it.
Positive morning issue: Again I’m wondering if anyone has had similar. For the last few weeks, on one or two mornings out of every three, I have been awake an hour or more before I got up and found my mind busy with positive plans for everything from finally finishing the ceiling in the garage to making road trips with my wife- both something that I haven’t had much energy for recently.
This is awake planning, not dreams. Example, as I do every Saturday, today I got up at 5 and fed the dogs, so I can sleep in. I was downstairs talking happily to the dogs, not capable of thinking a negative thought, and ravenously hungry for the first time in weeks. I ate a sandwich and went back to bed and continued planning all kinds of things. Then, about 6:00, a cat jumped on me, and, as has happened every morning I have these positives, it was like a switch was thrown and I was immediately back in my a bit anxious, a bit depressed state for the rest of the day. For the record this does not seem a manic phase, the planning is very sedate and pleasant, and I drift in and out of sleep. Anyone?