Slight PSA rise 9 months after radiation.

I hope you reconsider. There is always something or somebody to live for. We never know what the future holds. You may meet someone or find a purpose in the future for which you want more quality time.
No matter your decisions, I wish you well and hope you find peace.

@racslider I'm so sorry to hear about the tough turns your life has taken. I'm not going to give you "why not try this simple trick?" type advice, because I know it's not that easy. Instead, I'm going to remind you of a couple of things:

1. Depression is a convincing liar. It tells you you're worthless, that life is hopeless, and that they way you feel is because of what's happening around you and is outside your control.

2. It **is** possible to feel better (even happy) no matter what is going on in your life, but it will take work, and depression is busy trying to convince you that you're too tired, or it's not worth it, or it probably won't matter anyway. Don't believe it (see item one).

Getting started and seeking help is the hardest part of recovery from depression. Others have written about it here: some found a path through therapy, some through religious faith, sone through medication, and some through community involvement and helping others. If you decide to fight depression (and I hope you do), it might take more than one try, but it's worth it. There's joy waiting for you out there behind the thick, dark curtain.

Mayo also has a forum on the topic that might be helpful:
https://connect.mayoclinic.org/group/depression-anxiety/

Racslider:
Just adding my encouragement to that from others to continue and move forward.
My philosophy is that "everything changes"; nothing stays the same. Sometimes changes are for the better and sometimes for the worse.
Since I cannot predict, I try to persevere.
I would not want to look back and regret missing the opportunity for continued life and health.
Best wishes.

There can very well be someone or somebody around the corner to live for. How about yourself? Wouldn't that be a possible reason?

I was wrong. Your relatively high PSA that keeps going down does occur with some people that receive radiation. I’ve now heard of cases where it took three years to get back to undetectable after radiation.

Do remember, if your PSA rises three times in a row you need to look into it, that can mean a relapse.