Feel hopeless dealing with depression, finances and dental issues

Posted by kmlinneh @kmlinneh, Feb 16 12:11pm

My name is Karen. I’m new to this group.

I have an appointment with my doctor today. I feel like I hit rock bottom. I have depression all my life. I’m 56 yrs old. Solid work history up until 4 years ago. Wanted to work online from home. Last job down sided. 7 weeks I was there. 4 weeks previous job. I now had dental
Implants removed. No teeth. I’m scared. I’m not gonna pull out of it this time. I own a home where I grew up and afraid of losing it. I cannot work right now if I could. I can’t function to get out of bed or even shower. Property taxes and rising cost are killing me. I have never joined a group or anything before. I just feel so scared and hopeless. I also found out SSRIs cause dental implant failure. I don’t have money to spend on a new over denture. Surgeon is replacing implants, with dome costs to me. I have an equity line of credit on my home, but without being unstable to work I cannot get another one. I don’t know why because they will get my house if I can’t make payments. I’m not in my right state of mind. I just need to talk.

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keeg1010 | @keeg1010 | Feb 16 3:06pm

@kmlinneh
Hi Karen,
I am so sorry to hear about everything you're going through. I know some days it can be so overwhelming, that you feel hopeless. Just know..this too shall pass. I know it probably doesn't feel like it now but it will get better. I know when I'm struggling, I pray for guidance and help. I don't know if that's something you do but it always helps me. I'm really glad you found this group. Everyone here is wonderful and supportive. You'll always have a friend here. Take it one day at a time and take care of yourself.
Hugs,
Kerry

Laurie, Volunteer Mentor | @roch | Feb 16 3:07pm

@kmlinneh
Welcome to Mayo Connect. You have a lot happening. I am glad you have an appointment with your doctor today.
Is this with your primary doctor?
Are you still taking any medications for depression?

Please let us know how your appointment went and what their suggestions are going forward.

diverdown1 | @diverdown1 | Feb 17 8:20am

Karen, thank you for sharing all that here. I don't know if you know, but it helps people. I got Long COVID over 3 years ago. I have not been able to work and I am in graduate school online, living off my student loans. I am your age and I am also a recovery alcoholic of several years. I can let my mind start spinning about all the things that have and are happening. When I graduate, will I get a job? What is this virus doing to my insides? How am I going to pay off my debt when I feel like shit all the time? So I understand the spinning mind. I have to bring myself back to the present moment and remind myself that right now, this moment, I am ok. I am not homeless, I have food, water, transportation and I am sober. All I have is this moment. When I bring myself back to the present, my brain settles. I have absolutely no idea what the future is going to bring and I can't do anything about the past. I have to do what is in front of me today...that is all. That is not to say that there are things that I need to plan for in the future, but future tripping causes me to have anxiety. So far, I have been okay. When I ruminate about the future, it send me into fear. This fear is because I am imagining the worst, usually. I hope that your doctor appointment goes well. Please hang in there, today and keep sharing here. This platform has helped me so much and I hope the same for you.