My life is getting to be useless

I am a 51 year old who has had everything go wrong with my body. When I was younger it was for severe migraines, then a large golf ball cyst in my right breast. Then PID which was so painful. Then endometriosis twice in 10 years and now again the pain. My abdomen started degrading to where there is almost nothing now. Just fat and skin no muscle. I’ve had atleast 30 surgeries. Including 3 pelvic prolapse surgeries. I then had been suffering for 15 years of Pheochromocytoma and diagnosed myself and was correct even though they said it wasn’t. I’ve always been correct when it comes to my body. A hysterectomy actually 2 times second to remove my cervix . So many surgeries and before each thing went wrong there was pain. I constantly begged for help. My body has been degenerating this whole time. I have issues with my feet and spine, neck and back. I’ve had to move quite a bit and some doctors were great but then we’d have to move. When I had Pheo I was treated like a dog and a drug seeker. The headaches were deadly. My heart rate would t go up in the hospital and I had no clue it was my blood pressure. Just thought hot flashes. Tremors, sweating. Hospital after hospital. Maybe 50 times or more. 15 years of it. I have PTSD from doctors. I miss my old ones but have to be where my husbands job is. I’ve been suffering with chronic pain all of my life. I’m in Michigan now where I’ve been doing everything they said paid for everything they did but still won’t put me back on my medication. I am now at home I do nothing. I can barely walk, sleep, sit. Anything. I can’t go anywhere or do anything I use to when I was being treated. When I was treated I had a job, did everything by myself. No I’m nothing! I’m literally dying in my house day by day. Has this world come to this, where my dog can get medication but I can’t. I have a psychiatrist but even she won’t give me clonazepam. I was on oxycodone and clonazepam. And other things I needed. I need a chance to be human again. Live without extreme pain. Cortisone shots, antidepressants and buprenorphine which doesn’t work at all. Or maybe a tiny bit. I cry everyday. Why? I have a prolapse again no pain treatment. Hernias, no pain treatment. My stomach muscle severe pain. When I was treated o never asked for more. I stayed on my same regimen day to day. Life was good I was still in pain but my doctors were good. I shouldn’t have to suffer this way. I’m writing this and I’ve never done this before but I wish a doctor could see me. A grown adult. I know my body better than anyone. I’ve tried everything in 30 or more years. I know what works. I pray for a humane doctor. I have just given up. Waiting or looking or even thinking there is one who cares about me. I can’t even shower. Takes me 3 weeks. But they don’t care. Please send me someone who will. pleas tell me what to do? Abby