My grandfather has pancreatic cancer

Posted by insideworlda8 @insideworlda8, 4 days ago

my grandfather was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer two years ago and now, 2 weeks ago, the chemotherapy treatment was changed to a "better" one. But since May 21, my grandfather hasn't eaten anything substantial, so he is given infusions with all the necessary supplements every day. Also, for a week he has been vomiting continuously and I am very scared. I live in Romania and I have already spoken to some of the best doctors and they say that there is nothing they can do. I searched all over the internet, I even read other people's experiences and I have never seen anyone vomit so much and what worries me the most is the fact that the vomit was the color of mustard and now it is dark brown almost black. And I don't understand why is he vomiting like that when I ask my parents, they don't know either, telling me that the doctors don't know either, and it's not that I don't believe them because I know that he would do everything for my grandfather, but I feel helpless and it's almost impossible I believe that even the doctors don't know what to do with him. If you have ever seen something like this in someone or if you have heard of it, I would ask you to tell me what it is about. I am 17 years old and I feel as if I cannot do nothing but waiting for him to die and that seems horrible to me, only the fact that I say this word in my mind makes me cry. I really don't know what to do, what I could do, also I talk to my grandmother the most who I admire extremely much during this period, I don't think I could be as strong as her in such moments. With my father, I have some reticence because I'm afraid of how he will react when he sees me our own reaction and that's why we reject ourselves quite a lot lately. Life has taken a bad turn lately, it's the first time that the whole family is so bad and I'm not saying that these moments wouldn't come sometime anyway, but it's much too soon, at least I'm not ready and no matter how much I want to accept it, my heart won't let me. When I was little, I guess it was like a "back up" method, that is, to somehow know what to do in a situation like that, I always said that a to die together with my grandfather because I knew that without him I could not continue my normal life, no matter how wrong this sounds. I am very scared of that moment which of course is inevitable because there was a time when my grandfather just fell asleep in the armchair Earlier, I had listened to a story about a neighbor who had also been found breathless in an armchair by his wife. I was in the next room and I kept calling my grandfather and noticed that he did not answer, until I went to check on him my younger sister arrived who was already in the living room and was still calling him, and then a huge fear entered me. When I arrived in the living room I saw my grandfather in a strange position with his eyes closed and I dared to call to him, my grandmother had also arrived and all three of us were shouting at him. Well, that was the moment when my legs went numb, I couldn't feel them at all, so I fell into a coma, my mind was numb and my tears flowed instantly. My grandfather opened his eyes. then, it only turned out that he was deeply asleep, but it was a horrible experience, a rare feeling that I had that was eating me from the inside, my breathing stopping for a few seconds.
So I beg you to tell me anything about my grandfather's symptoms because I feel an inexplicable fear for the near future.

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Don't worry, death is nothing to fear. Hopefully your grandpa had a good, long life. I am not a doctor but I saw my dad and sister die from stomach cancer and pancreatic cancer at the age of 48 and 52. Now my mom is 80 and dying from pancreatic cancer. Ask the doctor all your questions but be aware that you will get some pretty gross answers. I don't know why he would be throwing up so much, maybe from the medication. If he is being fed by a tube and throwing up, personally, I would stop the tube food. The goal is to make his passing as painless as possible; not to keep him alive while being tortured by cancer. My sister was totally drugged up and mostly sleeping. Remember to only think of your grandfather right now, not the pain you will feel when he passes. You will see him again when you pass away. Your grandfather wants to be in peace not pain. I am sending you strength and a hug (can't find my emojis).

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Don't worry, death is nothing to fear. Hopefully your grandpa had a good, long life. I am not a doctor but I saw my dad and sister die from stomach cancer and pancreatic cancer at the age of 48 and 52. Now my mom is 80 and dying from pancreatic cancer. Ask the doctor all your questions but be aware that you will get some pretty gross answers. I don't know why he would be throwing up so much, maybe from the medication. If he is being fed by a tube and throwing up, personally, I would stop the tube food. The goal is to make his passing as painless as possible; not to keep him alive while being tortured by cancer. My sister was totally drugged up and mostly sleeping. Remember to only think of your grandfather right now, not the pain you will feel when he passes. You will see him again when you pass away. Your grandfather wants to be in peace not pain. I am sending you strength and a hug (can't find my emojis).

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Thank u for answering,I understand your pain which i know it is even bigger ….cancer is killing our loved ones and is killing us on the inside.In the future i have a strong hope there will be found a cure.
Though,I’ll never give up at my grandfather because he himself still has hope and so the whole family.We now included a medical substance in the tube called granisetron and he s not throwing up anymore and he can finnaly sleep now.Also he might start eating again.
I am grateful for all of your kind words,u re right death is nothing to fear because eventually we all collapse,but at the moment i’ll be optimistic and hopeful.I am not prepared yet to live without him and he s also not prepared to leave this world.He has the whole family with him and he will always have.🩷

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i wish i could give you words of wisdom etc but i can't.. all i can say is spend time talking with him, record his stories, write them down...ask him questions about his younger days etc...anything to get him talking...you won't regret that...

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