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Posted by karieanthony @karieanthony, 2 days ago

Maybe I should listen to my heat it is a hard ! I take a lot of mental health drugs. tryng to fight whats inside of me ? Been fighting for long time 50 years. Now I can bearly keep going !I have been punished my my locked door kicked in . I was beat down Name calling Dad called me sissy boy my step father kicked my door down .Made too feel dirty raped when I was 12 for 3 days by 2 men I did not know them! They could not find them! All for trying to be my self SO I BLAMED MY SELF. sorry for talking too much my Family did not care. I take anything that works . It is probly time to find help some one to take to Maybey do more even at this late date

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Ginger, Volunteer Mentor | @gingerw | 1 day ago

@karieanthony Welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect. It is rarely easy to realize and understand how our life may have been affected by others, and their actions.

What medications are you on at this time? Has your doctor considered changes in that regimen? Have you considered looking for face-to-face help, like a therapist or psyschologist?

As you might have felt, writing this out, sometimes we find getting things out of our head and onto paper can help us, Here is a journaling discussion we have here, and you may find some tips to help you out! https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/journaling-the-write-stuff-for-you/
Ginger

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karieanthony | @karieanthony | 19 hours ago

Taking colazipan, Effxor, seriquill, Trazidon !Everyone always gets mad at me everytime i try to get fixed. I went up to Hospital with knife at least twice cut my testicals out it seams only way to start things going. Ido not have sex with anyone any more. I have not had sex since 1980's with wife I just can not !And no sex with men after what happened. IU feel drity likew garbage !My falt.IUhad a PHYSIOLOGIST, PHYSICIST, THERIPIST,.HAD PAPER AND WENT TO Uof M GENDER HOSPITAL. Cannot remeber there Names no Paperwork left,. This was 90's.had a major episod a break down 2 weeks I could not sleep3 more breakdowns. All I want is a chance. They gave me newPhysicist will not see for 3 months. I allso want a new Dockter a Women have hard time with men.

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Ginger, Volunteer Mentor | @gingerw | 10 hours ago
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Taking colazipan, Effxor, seriquill, Trazidon !Everyone always gets mad at me everytime i try to get fixed. I went up to Hospital with knife at least twice cut my testicals out it seams only way to start things going. Ido not have sex with anyone any more. I have not had sex since 1980's with wife I just can not !And no sex with men after what happened. IU feel drity likew garbage !My falt.IUhad a PHYSIOLOGIST, PHYSICIST, THERIPIST,.HAD PAPER AND WENT TO Uof M GENDER HOSPITAL. Cannot remeber there Names no Paperwork left,. This was 90's.had a major episod a break down 2 weeks I could not sleep3 more breakdowns. All I want is a chance. They gave me newPhysicist will not see for 3 months. I allso want a new Dockter a Women have hard time with men.

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@karieanthony To be blunt, you need to find new people to associate with, if they are mad at you for wanting to help yourself!

Being abused by any gender is not right. I hope you can get in to see your new doctor before the three months. Perhaps you can ask to be placed on a wait-list, and be notified if there is a cancellation. Is this possible to try and do? Looking for a new primary care doctor can be difficult; it seems they are so busy! But please keep trying to find one that you can work with. you deserve it.
Ginger

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