Mental Health

@karieanthony Welcome to Mayo Clinic Connect. It is rarely easy to realize and understand how our life may have been affected by others, and their actions.

What medications are you on at this time? Has your doctor considered changes in that regimen? Have you considered looking for face-to-face help, like a therapist or psyschologist?

As you might have felt, writing this out, sometimes we find getting things out of our head and onto paper can help us, Here is a journaling discussion we have here, and you may find some tips to help you out! https://connect.mayoclinic.org/discussion/journaling-the-write-stuff-for-you/
Ginger

Taking colazipan, Effxor, seriquill, Trazidon !Everyone always gets mad at me everytime i try to get fixed. I went up to Hospital with knife at least twice cut my testicals out it seams only way to start things going. Ido not have sex with anyone any more. I have not had sex since 1980's with wife I just can not !And no sex with men after what happened. IU feel drity likew garbage !My falt.IUhad a PHYSIOLOGIST, PHYSICIST, THERIPIST,.HAD PAPER AND WENT TO Uof M GENDER HOSPITAL. Cannot remeber there Names no Paperwork left,. This was 90's.had a major episod a break down 2 weeks I could not sleep3 more breakdowns. All I want is a chance. They gave me newPhysicist will not see for 3 months. I allso want a new Dockter a Women have hard time with men.

@karieanthony To be blunt, you need to find new people to associate with, if they are mad at you for wanting to help yourself!

Being abused by any gender is not right. I hope you can get in to see your new doctor before the three months. Perhaps you can ask to be placed on a wait-list, and be notified if there is a cancellation. Is this possible to try and do? Looking for a new primary care doctor can be difficult; it seems they are so busy! But please keep trying to find one that you can work with. you deserve it.
Ginger

Life is rough and can suck hugely and the wave apon wave of hurt, disappointments, ppl ripping you off, one side friendships false friendships are worse!!! And there just the mild ones YOUR NOT ALONE!!! ITS NOT YOUR FAULT!! Life can Just be a BITCH!!!
But your one the right track reach out talk to people, it helps to know even though it REALLY sucks but others have gone through it are going through it you could help and be helped. If it gets too much see your doctor get a recommendation to talk to a professional it seriously helped me and am not a fan of Doctors especially Therapist of any kind. I was dragged kicking and screaming but now I am still alive living day by day and finally planning stuff I want to do in the future. Best of luck and please be kind to yourself You DESERVE IT!!

The most powerful thing I ever heard from a therapist was "It was not your fault." So I am here to also tell you, it was NOT your fault. You were a child surrounded by adults who should have been taking care of you and making decisions in the best interest of you. Unfortunately, this does shape who we are and our own sense of self-worth. I hope you find someone to talk to that resonates with you and makes you feel safe. Sending BIG hugs to you!

Trauma is what you experienced. This was done to not caused by you. Trauma can set us up for a life time of dysfunctional living. I have ptsd and have linked my issues back to me at around age and my parents who had me being treated by a speech therapist- psychologist. I am not a victim now. There is cause effect correlation. My parents were told stop being so perfectionistic with this child. For some reason the advice was not followed.