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Life is not the same

Posted by diverdown1 @diverdown1, Dec 23, 2025

I am on several of these groups. I found this site through my search for answers about Long COVID and doctors having no idea. When I got sick, I was almost 4 years sober from alcoholism and addiction. I always went to 12 step meetings, socialized with sober friends and exercised daily. I love AA and it saved my life, however as I have this damn virus, I have to pick and choose how I use my energy that I get with the help of medications I take. Today, I had to call out from my internship (grad student) due to malaise, fatigue and feeling overall terrible. I am taking things a day at a time, which helps, however there are days when I wonder what is going to happen to me. This is one of those days. I must start doing AA online again. I miss being around people, but I don't feel good in the evenings or mornings. Meetings, in person are usually in the evenings. I have become isolated from the people that I once thought my friends. It is difficult to explain this virus to people. I miss having an active life. I recently had my 8 year sobriety birthday and have not gone to get a chip as I have not felt like it physically. I also lost my partner 2 years ago on the 18th. This time of year is difficult. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for sobriety and what I can do as it can always be worse, but I am also tired and get in the dregs sometimes. I just needed to vent. Grateful for all of you as well. Whether you know it or not, you are helpful to me.

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judimahoney | @judimahoney | Dec 30, 2025
In reply to @judyhendricks1959 "@diverdown1 Aww, they are beautiful. I know how poor health can take a person down. My..." + (show)
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@diverdown1

Aww, they are beautiful. I know how poor health can take a person down. My daughter has been chronically ill with a bizarre range of illnesses since covid began also. She is now in the process of being diagnosed with Bechet's disease after MANY work-up's that would end up leading to anything. She'd been hospitalized twice and treated for pulmonary embolism's and no one could say why or what caused them. Finally, one doctor believed how sick she was and dug in to research and had no doubt she has Bechet's disease. She's being treated while she awaites her 2nd opinion in Boston. The moral of her story is: DON'T give up being your own best advocate. Even when they tell you, your just depressed and should go on meds and see a counselor! I think covid caused many illnesses and auto-immune diseases to bloom in our population. There are studies being done that are tracking the general health of people pre- & post covid. These are persons who had NO health issues prior and have been chronically ill since.In the meantime, enjoy those beautiful fur babies - they will be your saving grace! All they know how to do is love unconditionally, whether they're being walked, run or nothing but being with you at home - so long as they know you love them back with things as simple as petting or talking with them. My furry little girl is the love of my life with what I'm going through too (although mine is loss of function from sever spine degeneration)
Hang in there, never give up on our Lord being with you through this. Lift all things up to Him

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It's funny you wrote saving grace, because that is the name of the animal rescue where we found our dog, now my therapy pet.
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cvestor | @cvestor | Dec 30, 2025

You don't have to adopt a dog you can be a foster parent even if it is for a weekend And cats are great too to help They love do stupid things just like dogs So become a foster mother the shelters can always use a lending hand
And since I saw death one has a different out look at life. I try to explain this to folks that take life one day at a time But most people blow me off as they are too buzy I just say to myself just wait until it is too late then you maybe will listen They just flip me the bird

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judyhendricks1959 | @judyhendricks1959 | Dec 30, 2025
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@judyhendricks1959
It's funny you wrote saving grace, because that is the name of the animal rescue where we found our dog, now my therapy pet.

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Ah! I love it and they are our saving grace! There's a special place in doggie heaven for the pets who have saved so many of us. I swear, They are angels from above

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dederickve | @dederickve | Dec 30, 2025
In reply to @judyhendricks1959 "Is it possible you could own a dog? I don't know what your living arrangements are..." + (show)
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Is it possible you could own a dog? I don't know what your living arrangements are or if you've ever had a pet before but let me just say - owning a dog, is the most rewarding life experience. They love you unconditionally, they're always happy to see you and they are so comical in their attempts to please you. Dogs are brought into so many environments to help people heal, not feel lonely, etc. There's a saying for dogs that are rescued. It reads: "Who rescued who ?" Give it some thought. Your in my prayers

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@judyhendricks1959 I feel likewise. I absolutely couldn’t enjoy my life without dogs ! They are great !

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kahki | @kahki | Dec 31, 2025

Feeling sad for you and this long COVID business. What a life changer. Sounds like you are a very strong person and will conquer this. Pray every morning for God to help you. Grief alone is debilitating so you are at full capacity. May it ease in the new year!

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